So, I've always been okay at trusting the Lord with the big picture things in life. Sometimes it is hard not knowing what the future will hold, but I rarely doubt that it will be good, that everything will work out. One of my favorite verses since my freshman year of college has been Romans 8:28:
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose."
I never doubted that God was working for my good. Even when the burdens of life have weighed heavily on my shoulders, I knew there was purpose in it, even if I could not see it at that moment. But the truth of the sweet words in this verse take on new meaning for me in this chapter of my life. As I prepare to jump into a whole other world (11 of them, actually), my focus has shifted to the part about God's calling.
As inadequate as I may feel, as small as I may see myself, as weak as I sometimes believe I am, the God of the Universe has called ME. Little ol' me! Who'd of thought? He has called me to be an ambassador of His Message. He has entrusted the most important Message in the world to me–to us! That is a big deal! This is our calling, in black and white:
"How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? And how can anyone preach unless they are sent? As it is written: “How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!”
-Romans 10:14-15 (Can you tell I love Romans?)
So, if this is my calling, my mission, how could I not trust that the Lord will be with me, guide me, prepare me, protect me, provide for me every step of the way? I think too often our view of God is far, far too small. We should expect BIG things from Him? HUGE things!
So why wouldn't I believe with my whole being that He will bring in the financial support as well? Lately I have struggled with doubt in this area, and I don't know why it is so hard to trust God with money sometimes. But He really does care about the tiniest of details in our lives, even down to the pennies in our bank accounts. And He is good. He is the Great Provider. He will come through. Believe it.
