Hi y’all!
Family, friends, friends of friends, strangers, whoever stumbles upon reading this: HELLO! I guess I should first start off by telling you who I am, my name is Sydney Miller. I was born and raised in St. Charles, Missouri. I have lived here my whole life. For those of you who know anything about Missouri you know that it’s not exactly the most thrilling place to live. I think that’s where I first got my desire to travel, to see more, to know more, and to experience more. I am currently a sophomore in college. I enjoy coffee, donuts, traveling, spending time with my friends, laughing (for those of you who know me, I am laughing 95% of my life), sunshine, heart to hearts. Yeah, yeah. I think you get it.
Anyway, lets get down to the nitty gritty. (Nacho Libre quote)
This time last year I was pleading with God to call me away from college, to reveal something bigger and better. Basically, I was not satisfied with what He was doing in my life. Selfish, right? Yes. I was asking the King of the world to change my story. I was trying to write my own story. After processing through all that, God taught me to be faithful with where He has me. That everyday was a part of His plan for me, He showed me that He sees the bigger picture. So by the grace of God, I finished my freshman year of college. Now here I am, my first semester of sophomore year and you would think I learned nothing last year. I am back to square one pleading for Him to call me away from school.
About two months ago, I told two of my friends that I wish I could just drop school and go on the World Race Gap Year… and they replied, “Um why don’t you?!?!?!” I walked away from that conversation thinking no freaking way. That is the most unrealistic thing I could ever do. *applies for WR two days later*
Time passes by and the next thing I know I’m waiting to hear back if I am accepted or not. Battling more excitement than I ever knew I could experience, doubt, anxiety.
September 15th, I’m sitting in my favorite coffee shop and I have been reading about prayer. The next section I was about to read is titled “Waiting on the Lord” (ok God, I see you) So I start reading and I come across this,
“We simply speak words to God as if the very act of voicing them, without any heart involvement in what we are saying, will itself bring an answer from God. But this kind of request forgets that prayer is a relationship between two persons, myself and God.”
So now here I am in the corner of this coffee shop with tears in my eyes repenting to God because I had been praying the most vague prayers, thinking “Oh, He knows my heart” The whole waiting process had been filled with anxiety and doubt because I wasn’t trusting God. I started praying right then for forgiveness and that he would show me what it truly looks like to wait on the Lord…
Then my phone starts ringing, I open my eyes, answer the phone, and within seconds I am hearing the words, “Congratulations Sydney I am calling to tell you that you’ve been accepted to go on the World Race Gap Year”
WHAT THE WHAT!?!?!?
I ran out of the coffee shop told a stranger that I was just accepted for the WR. The conversation looked a little like this, “Hi, you don’t know me. I’m Sydney and you’re the only one here to tell that I just got accepted for the WR *squeals* runs out the door thanking God!!!
So who am I?
I am a sinner in need of grace. I am daughter in need of constant reminders to trust Him with it ALL. I am the hands and feet of Jesus. I am a member of the body of Christ with purpose. I am a broken vessel that God wants to use.
