Paul says in Ephesians:
“And I pray that you,
being rooted and established in love may grasp
how wide and long and high and deep
is the love of Christ.”
This is what my prayer has been from the beginning of the
race. I wanted to understand the love that
God had for me. And a continual trend I have found out, if you ask for something and it is in the will of the father, he will reveal it to you.
“The love of God began to wreck my heart.”
To find this love that everyone talked about was my mission,
I felt like I might know a little bit. These months were not easy. I wanted to
know the love of the Father. I was pushed, I was pulled, I was uncomfortable, I
wept, I had people fighting beside me, I had to fight for myself. It took me
months to understand. It took me months to accept that there is a God out there that
loves me more that I can ever imagine.
“You will seek me and find me
when you seek me with all your heart.”
Then there were times when I was overjoyed, I was laughing,
dancing, shouting, singing.
I did not do this on my own. I did not find the solution. I
did not solve the problem. He came to me,
he showed me. He met me where I was at and loved me. He took me to places I have
never been before.
In so many ways would I love to explain this feeling, this
yearning in my heart for more because I have experienced a glimpse of it. But I
have realized it is not something that I can put into words, because the words
don’t compare. The words don’t measure up.
He’s invited us into this reality…
And the great thing is that there is still more
love to be had, more love to grasp.
Johnathan David Helser says…
