So, we are in Kenya. I have been procrastinating writing this blog, mostly because I don’t know what to write. The thing is, the ministry here is great. (check it out at: http://challengefarm.org/) My team is great. My squad mates are great. The kids here are great. The teachers and staff here are great. But, for some reason, I feel blah. For some reason, I don’t feel connected here.
Every month, I can feel myself checking out sooner and sooner, even in countries where I have absolutely loved being there. Maybe it’s because it is hard for me to say goodbyes. Maybe it’s because it is a really long trip. Maybe it is because of so many possible reasons. This month, I don’t think I have even checked IN yet!
I don’t like this. I don’t like that there are over 100 children here at Challenge Farm who used to be street kids and now live here and I get to work with them every day and I feel blah. This is an AMAZING opportunity. This is the type of thing that I would be in the United States daydreaming about doing, hoping that some day, I would get to go to a place like this. And I am here. I GET to be here, and I feel blah. I can’t get connected. I watch the clock. I’m not even sure what to do.
Sure, I can use the excuse that it is month 8. Everybody is exhausted in month 8. Everybody has a time that they ‘check-out’ and don’t connect. Not every month can be everybody’s favorite. This happens to everybody. But I don’t want to use that excuse. I don’t want to get back to the United States and know I could have given more, been more, grown more, loved more. I do NOT want that to happen. I want to give my all every day, every month, without excuses.
So, what should I do? I am not really sure, but I do know I need your prayers. I do know this trip is amazing. I do know this ministry is amazing. I do know these children are amazing and have incredible stories. I do know God loves each and everyone of them AND each and everyone of us. And I do know God answers prayers!
Here are a few links to fun and entertaining blogs my friends & teammates have written telling about our lives here!:
1) http://nicoleruggiano.theworldrace.org/?filename=grocery-shopping-in-kenya
This is a typical trip to the supermarket for us with PICTURES!! And yes, I did go on this same grocery store trip with Nicole.
2) http://helenajordao.theworldrace.org/?filename=geoffreys-story
An amazing TRUE story from one of the boys here at Challenge Farm: A MUST READ!
3) http://kathrynchinn.theworldrace.org/?filename=feelin-thankful
A short blog on being thankful along with some of the things we’ve been up to.
