There are days that it seems like I’m going to drown.
I have a terrible time doing one thing at a time. I want everything done so I try to do it all now, so that way I don’t have to worry about it in the future. But when you have so much happenning at once, it’s hard to do it all, and end up not getting one thing or the other done, with that comes the feeling of failure.
I’ve never been depressed that I know of, but I’ve had my run ins with the little guy trying to get the best of me. And in college when I was away from my family for the first time, I’d wake up and tell myself to do SOMETHING THAT WILL MAKE TODAY A HAPPIER DAY.
Got to the point that I told myself there’s not much I can do to make myself happy, this is the end of the phrase I’ve used for so long. But every once in a while I still get surprised that I can be even happier. God has an interesting way of moving the life of those that trust him.
You must be confused right now, she was talking about feeling like a failure and now she is talking about being supper happy? What is wrong with Susan? Did she hit her head?
Well let me tell you this, these past few days was the northern christian churches conference in Brazil and me not being there, has put me a little down and made it so didn’t do everything I was planning on doing this week.
But God is amazing and touched me through different servants of his, people that made it so I would be happy instead of sad and crying, I ended up not doing all that I had to do and that gave me a overwhelmed feeling.
I got to meet one of the girls going on the world race, and I got to be with friends on Saturday. And it is amazing to see God do little things fall into place and take care of me, giving me the tools needed to be happy, so I can show others his joy!!!
