There is someone in my life right now that is trying to talk me out of going on the World Race.
This person knows the way I think,
knows all my weaknesses,
knows how to use them against me
AND
does not hesitate to do so.
It's is hard NOT to listen to this person.
Mainly because this person is ME.
This person knows the way I think,
knows all my weaknesses,
knows how to use them against me
AND
does not hesitate to do so.
It's is hard NOT to listen to this person.
Mainly because this person is ME.
I guess you could say I am experiencing cold feet.
I'm doubting my ability to step this far out of my comfort zone,
to surround myself with people I don't know in countries I'm not from,
to walk away from my life here,
to become what I (currently) view as financially insecure,
to have the knowledge and wisdom to teach anything about God and His love.
I'm doubting my ability to step this far out of my comfort zone,
to surround myself with people I don't know in countries I'm not from,
to walk away from my life here,
to become what I (currently) view as financially insecure,
to have the knowledge and wisdom to teach anything about God and His love.
The only thing I don't doubt is whether I'm supposed to go.
I am.
I don't doubt this.
Furthermore, I have not had a single person I've told about going on the race say anything even slightly negative about the idea. People are fully supportive. My spirit is fully supportive. As is my heart… My brain is just proving harder to convince.
I am.
I don't doubt this.
Furthermore, I have not had a single person I've told about going on the race say anything even slightly negative about the idea. People are fully supportive. My spirit is fully supportive. As is my heart… My brain is just proving harder to convince.
So I am ignoring my brain. I am listening to those who know me as well as I know myself. And I remember that many of the stories we know from the Bible are from people who doubted their ability/position; people who thought what they were doing didn't make sense (check out my squadmate Kayla's blog for more details on this idea: http://kaylafleming.theworldrace.org/?filename=it-doesnt-make-sense). And I follow their lead, doubting my ability, but trusting in God's ability to overcome and use me anyway.
