The past two months I have been praying for God to break me of being unable to be vulnerable with my emotions in front of other people. I have been praying for him to help me to feel other’s peoples pain and joy more so and to grow in my gift of mercy that He has given me.
Yesterday, some team mates on my team Real Love decided to go to the local hospital we are living next to. They wanted to give flowers to the mothers in the hospital and to pray for the women there. We went yesterday afternoon.
One of my teammates was in a room with a little girl younger than two and another boy. I stayed back with her to love on this adorable little girl. She has no name, no one knows her age, and she was abandoned. She sits in the hospital all day long with not much attention. As we held her, we prayed for her for protection, love, and to have earthly parents one day. Her precious eyes make you fall in love with her instantly. As we thought it was time to go, God had a different plan. She started wailing as soon as we put her down because she just wanted to be loved and held.
Her tears made me cry because of how much she desired love that she was not given. She simply desired to know that she mattered, a natural human desire.
As I was crying, I heard another lady crying in the hallway. As my teammate and I went out there, we saw that she was in tears because her newborn was blue. She was watching to see if he was alive still.
We didn’t know what to do except pray for this beautiful woman. Feeling helpless, we continued to pray for the baby as it was dying. A nurse finally showed up and asked if we were from the United States. As we said we were, she said we were advocating for the baby and finally took the baby to ICU and care for him.
It was such an emotional day of tears. Despite not understanding pain, I am praising God I am able to serve these people in times of hardship and love them throughout it.
God is breaking my heart for what breaks His. I know this will continue this year.
