The past month while we were in El Salvador, I was constantly stressed about things, mostly having to do with money. I would shove those thoughts aside when we went to ministry or did things with our host, but they would come right back when we got home. Eventually I let them get in the way of my quiet time and my stress started to affect my intimacy with God. I was asking questions like, “How am I supposed to finish the Race with little to no money?” “Why would God call me to do this thing just to let me fail at fundraising?” “What happens if I don’t make the deadline and get sent home?” With all these questions came doubt. Am I really supposed to even be here in the first place? Then one night, a teammate of mine put a thought in my head. Even if all of these things do happen, does that change who God is? If I do miss the deadline for fundraising and get sent home early, is God still good? If I finish out the Race with no money and have to miss out on adventures, is God still good? If I don’t make it to all 11 countries and spread His love to the people, is God still good? The answer to all of those questions is yes. It took an entire month full of stress and doubt for me to come to that realization. For it to go from head knowledge to heart knowledge. I knew it was the right answer the whole time, but I didn’t necessarily believe it. Now, I do. No matter what happens, God is still good.
I am $6,356 away from being fully funded, and the deadline is January 31st. When you do the math, that seems way too much money in such a short period of time, but hey, God is good. I believe all of the funds are in His hands, and I am fully trusting in His plans for me. Head knowledge is not enough for Him, he wants our whole hearts too. So I am giving Him my whole heart, in everything I do here on the Race and will do after. And I know and believe that no matter what happens, He is always good.
If you would like to help me financially reach my goal, there is a button to donate on the home page of my blog. If you would like to help me spiritually reach my goal, you can pray for safety and strength for me and my team as we reach out to the people of Northern Vietnam. Thank you for all of your love, prayers, and support so far.
Much Love,
Sum
