3 months complete and I see that there is a reason that the
World Race is 11 months. If I were to go home now, I would have learned some
great lessons and seen some amazing things, but I would probably return to my
previous way of life. The question then remains: What is my previous life?
I would define my previous life as a life that is
continuously seeking after the perfect life that others will envy, jumping from
job to job, feeling that life has more to offer, but succumbing to the belief
that the comforts of home are too difficult to give up, thus restricting me to
a life dependent upon finances, others’ opinions, and fear.
So, if I had a previous way of life, then it stands to
reason that I must have a current way of life or a future way of life. I am
still trying to understand what this looks like. So far, the path of the
previous life seems to be a direct, linear line while the path God seems to be
calling me to is much more elusive and winding, like a mountain road. I may not
know where it leads or what He will call me to, but I know that I want to be in
the very palm of His hand. Following His lead is the only way that my life will
be purposeful and fulfilling.
While the World Race sounds adventurous and amazing, it is
also just life, not my life’s dreams
complete. I struggle through days where pastors do not show up on time, paint
for a project is not available, and I have just been offered my third cup of
tea with milk straight out of the cow,
threatening to disrupt all normal digestive processes. The only difference
between the World Race and my previous life is that I know God has called me to
this mission at this time, which gives me purpose. What comes next? Only God
knows and I am learning to be content to walk in His timing.
“The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O
Lord, endures forever…” Psalm 138:8
