Here’s the problem with following Jesus. Every time I find myself relaxing… I find myself stirred. Every time I think I’ve arrived… I realize that I have further to go. You see, God won’t let me quit dreaming. And the dreams just get bigger and scarier. To tell you the truth, it makes me want to run for the hills!
But I can’t. The pull to be with him is just too stong. And over and over I hear him whispering, “Do it afraid! Push past the fear! Overcome the anxiety! I’m here. I’ll hold your hand. I will catch you if you fall.”
I want to settle in and rest, in this place of comfort. I want to be content. But God isn’t calling us to settle; he’s calling us to follow. -Kerri Lynn from You’re Made for a God-Sized Dream
Follow him into unchartered territory.
Follow him into new relationships.
Follow him into taking risks and chasing dreams.
-Holly Gerth author of You’re Made for a God-Sized Dream
You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand. (Psalm 16:11)
I am uncomfortable, and without a huge vision.
I am living with 12 other G squad members, each uniquely different.
I am walking 10+ miles each day up mountains and in the raging sun.
I am sharing my testimony and preaching the gospel.
I am living in a country that is 95% Hindu with unexplainable amounts of spiritual warfare.
I am learning about myself, as well as, the flesh.
I am both excited and unsettled about expanding my worldly knowledge.
I cried for the first time today as I feel The Lord stirring my heart.
I have complete faith in God and am trusting his unending love for me.
I am excited and scared as my God-sized dream continues to grow.
I will push through the fear and overcome the anxiety as God is driving my current “struggle bus,” and will continue to spur me in the direction he reveals along the way.
I am constantly being reminded of Colossians 3:2 “Set your mind on things above, not on things that are on earth.”
He is SO good, and his plan is much greater than my own. As I struggle internally about being away from home and experiencing life in a new way, I know that my God is in control. If I continue to pursue an intimate relationship with him, he will be my provider and protector. I do not doubt him, but I am struggling with doubting myself. Am I good enough? Strong enough? Wise enough? Can I really survive 11 months of his calling on my life? Most of the time I think so, but there are times that I hear that little voice of insecurity telling me, “I can’t make it.” However, I realize that the biggest battle we face day in and day out are ourselves, as we are our biggest competition. My God is BIGGER and STRONGER than my insecurities and fears.
Be strong and courageous, do not be afriad or tremble at them, for the LORD your God is the one who goes with you. He will never leave you nor foresake you. Deuteronomy 31:6
