Okay so Spiritual warfare was kicking my but the other day. I played several different versions of The Blood of Jesus in my room all through out the day, and was battling it out. Towards the end of the day I was reading my bible and was in the book of Mark chapter 14. Mark was telling about how Jesus had just been arrested and the priests were trying to come up with accusations to charge Jesus with. And right there God metaforicaly stuck out His chest and gave me an awesome word of Victory! It was like He was saying, "Don't worry about Steven I got your back, Let me handle this!"
Mark 14:61-62
61) But Jesus remained silent and gave no answer. Again the High Priest asked Him, "Are you the Messiah, The Son of the Blessed one?"
62) "I am," said Jesus. "And you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of The Mighty one and coming on the clouds of heaven."
Okay… What! Jesus just straight up served the pharisees! Jesus claimed the victory right there! Thats when I felt so much relief. The accusations and lies had no hold on me! There was only a feeling of victory. This is deffinitely one of my Top ten versus as far as favorites go! When Jesus said, "I am" it was such an incredible experience. God is speaking to me through his word. He's teaching me how to swing the sowrd day by day.
I also wanted to take this opportunity to show how much God has answered my prayers in the past year. The following is an excerpt from my journal on my computer that I don't let anyone read. It might be hard for some folks to read, I'm not to sure. I was in a very dark place a year ago and God has pulled me out of the darkness and to that I say Hallelujah to my Abba Father God YHWH!
How do you fill the void of a father. What do I do. I buy things and party and have relationships, but it never fills the hole. To know what it’s like to have a father. And I become enraged. Angry and mad sanity entirely abandoned. Nothing but the rawest and rarest form of distraught to come out of a human being. Then the tears come, but don’t touch me or come near me, I’ll tear you apart. I don’t want to be comforted. I just want my dad. My anger almost takes physical form inside of me, it explodes out of my head and my chest. Makes my head and chest feel heavy. These memoirs are all I can do from going insane or tearing my house down with my bear hands. Please Heavenly father God Yahweh fill my void with your love and mercy. Save me from the madness inside me. Save me from myself Heavenly Father God Yahweh.
Like I said, God has done so much for me in the past year. He has turned my heart around and now all I want to seek is Him and His fellowship. It's amazing the depths God has brought me out of, and the even cooler thing is that He gets all the Glory for it! Amen!
Matthew 11:28-30
28)"Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29) Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30) For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."
Be Blessed
