How’s it going guys? Been a while since we last spoke. Lately I feel like I haven’t put out an in depth blog in a while. I’ve been struggling. In the past weeks it’s been with what’s going to happen for the rest of my life (really like next few years), and my last blog was even about what that was going to consist of. As it turns out it I thought I wasn’t going to be able to do one thing so I pursued another, then the one thing did work so I’m doing that. Then on top of all this I feel the need to tell everyone because I still have some kind of self-centered struggle deep down which maybe I haven’t gotten to the bottom of and I feel the need to let everyone know I’m doing something productive with my life. You know what that sounds like? Something inbetween seeking the approval of others and trying to meet others standards. Ugh, what a mess. So I guess I want to get to a spot where, when I am doing new things with my life I don’t have to let everyone know because I’m comfortable and confident in who I am in Christ and in the eyes of man. Granted a lot of the things I have been doing in the past year and a half have required some fundraising and relying on God to bring in those funds and that does require a little bit of letting others know what’s going on in your life. lol
(I hope yall don’t mind me using things like hashtags and lol’s in my blogs. I figure if I’m not getting a grade on it, then it’s fine to be fully self-expressive via this blog using whatever kind of quirky tpyping I like. So thanks! :))
Another thing I’ve been batteling, or feel like I need to battle with, lately, is slothful lasiness. I really don’t like telling anyone this but if I were to try and put on some face to show that I’m living otherwise would be lying. There’s been just a short enough period of time between volunteering and starting school to where even if I tried to get a job I wouldn’t be here long enough to keep it or make an impact with the employer. So I’ve been home. I tell myself, “Oh, I’m going to get so much reading done, and I’m going to read my bible everyday!” My reality is I’m lucky if I can get up before 9, I maybe read one chapter of my Bible, and any reading besides that has been nonexistant. Not to mention I haven’t ran in forever, which is something I honestly love doing. I love the feeling after running, and I love eating healthy and keeping my weight down.
So I guess I’m asking for a kick in the pants or something.
These are the strugles as of late, and quite frankly I much rather not tell anyone, but prayer and confession brings forgiveness, and confession amongst brothers brings healing.
James 5:15-16 “And the prayer of faith will save the sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has comitted sins, He will be forgiven. Confess your trespasses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.” NKJV
I really hope to make the next two week really productive, and spiritually fruitful. If you could, the following is much needed in prayer.
- Energy to wake up at a decent hour in the morning
- a place to live in Toccoa, GA for the next two school semesters
- descipline and eagerness spiritually, academically, and physically
- Healing for my mom and aunt
- brokeness or at least a way to get to the bottom of the struggles previously listed, without fighting or hesitation
- a good school year (haven’t been a student in quite a few years lol)
Thanks guys. I appreciat all the love and support y’all give me through this and through prayer. Hope everything is going well on your end.
Love,
Steven Buffington
