I think for the first time on the race I feel a slight bit of worry about our next placement for ministry. It might be just from a lack of emptying out my brain. Sometimes when I still know theres still somewhat of an agenda it makes it a little hard to totally put my mind at ease. But I also think that a part of my worry is wondering weather or not the next one will be like this one, and honestly I'm ready to move on from the ministry here in Chiang Mai. I think I've made myself completely too comfortable, but it has exposed some areas of my faith that I've been neglecting. I.E. Reading my bible, journaling, and all that good stuff.
Lately with all the Internet I've been so focused on what's going on at home, networking, and other things that just don't matter right now. So I guess the slight fear would be that I have to give up things I don't need, but at the same time I want that so bad. I know the freedom that comes from being cut off from the rest of the world. Part of that is selfish but the part of it is so good for people. Most of what I'm talking about, I think, is having a fast track to solitude. Which, in turn, is a fast track to experiencing God in a very intimate way. Now, of course all the great writers and folks that know their super goody-two-shoes talk can say, “well part of practicing solitude is being able to have it no matter where you are.” In fact thats part of what Richard J. Foster talks about in his book Celebration of Discipline. Well guess what folks, I'm just not there yet! I believe with more practice and persistence, yes, I can experience that. I could even reach solitude at a college football game, but as for now I just need a schedule free people free, couple of days.
Having said all this I do feel like there were missed opportunities this months concerning discipline and stewardship of time. However no missed opportunity is actually an entirely missed opportunity. You can still seize the tail end of that “missed” opportunity to learn from it. This, I hope to do in the next days and maybe even in the next two months.
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