Having a calling had come up many times throuought the course of my life. The only time I am not wondering about it is when I am doing it…
We don’t wander about irrelevancy. The nature of the struggle in finding calling is the desire to grasp the meaningful. Wanderig is a beautiful process and yet is usually seen as insufficiency. Instead of wandering and questioning being an imaginative and healthy stage of growth it is seen as insecure state of ignorance.
So many times I focus on my faults… I am gifted in certain areas and yet my heart doesn’t find peace in wanting those things… Gifting is not calling…
So many of us are cursed with abilities that we have mistaken as our calling. One of the greatest tricks of the devil is to distract us with good things while the thing that NEEDS to be done remains untouched along with our withering soul. How many times do you see someone sucked into an occupation because it “pays the bills”?
I discovered I have sparatic gifts that are about as far apart as a good burger is from Asia. Instead of seeing that as a blessing of diversity… I saw it as a curse of not excelling at anything…
Embrace your curses in life. Many times they are not as destructive to us as we are to ourselves. Jesus embraced all of our curses when he died on a tree. He showed us how to absorb our curses and turn them into salvation. He taught us that the dirtiest of water can be changed into the sweetest wine and fishermen can be philosophers and leaders.
But the fact is that you can only find resurrection after death. For any tree to grow, the seed must first go into the ground and die… But death is not the end… It is a meaningful part of the process..
