So most of you know I am leaving in September. All my blogs that I post before I leave when I’m on the field I’m going to be 100% honest with everyone. Telling you my feelings. How God is working in my life. How I feel like the Devil is trying to pull me away from this trip. Also about my home life/personal life. So let me begin saying I had no clue I would ever be leave the united states. I mean yeah it was a dream of mine someday. But that day is comming so suddenly. I remember talking to my friend Cait about her missions trip to Africa. Asking her about her experiences and how God was moving her in her life. I honestly would never of thought I would be doing something like this. I remember telling her how I couldn’t leave my family and friends. But I remember her telling (don’t quote me on this) that you just have to do what god is telling you. Do what he is laying on your heart. So I spent a while thinking and praying and talking to a few very close friends and my youth pastor about this trip. They were more excited for me then I think anyone has been excited for me about anything. Then I told my parents. What a nervous situation that was. But that’s another blog some other time. So now I applied and got accepted 12/8/10 and now it 1/24/11 and my feeling about this trip you ask? My current feelings are excitment but feeling more negative then anything. Maybe it’s the Devil trying to attack me or myself attacking me? But all I can do is ask my father for help and just reach out to him. Maybe I need to listen morewhen I pray and pray openly in places that no one really expects it and just listen to what God has to say
