I will be open and honest. I am still frustrated, but more than any other emotion I am sad.
If you are not aware of the events that have taken place over the past few months the gist is that I left the world race on February 28th 2015 with three of my brothers that were kicked off for reasons I did not agree with. So through prayer and counseling from my pastor and parents I stood up with my brothers and left with them.
The month following that, my three brothers and I continued to work in an orphanage in Swaziland as we tried to work through reconciliation with the AIM leadership. Which ultimately we were unable to come to a point where we agreed so my brothers and I were not asked back, but even if they had asked us back three of us for sure would not of come back, but one would of, but he was not asked to come back.
But the reason I am sad isn’t as much about what all has happen, its hard for me watching these people that I have fallen in love with over these past 8 months I was on the race, to keep going on around the world and I can’t help but wish I was with them. I don’t regret standing up for my brothers and leaving the race because I know with everything in me that it was right, and that I followed what God told me to do, but I wish the incident that caused all of this had never happened. AIM has done a lot things so that the incidents that has happened to my squad wouldn’t happen again which is great, but it doesn’t benefit my squad, and still leaves me here in this Starbucks in Houston writing this blog, it leaves my brother Joshua in Saint Louis, it leaves my brothers Ryan, and Rhakeem, in Swaziland, it leaves us all away from the squad that we fell in love with. I forgive anyone that has done anything to me and to my squad, but not only is there is a price to pay for doing wrong, there is also a price to pay for doing what is right, and my brothers and I are paying it.
Now I am in the middle of Houston, Texas living with my parents at the age of 23, broke, no job, no car, and no solid plans. AIM has told me that all the doors are still open for me to partner with them and work with them, but I will no longer be working towards partnering with Adventures in Missions in India. I do pray for the leadership and by God’s grace I do love them and I want beautiful things for this ministry. I still get excited when I hear what this ministry is about, but ultimately…
It was time for my departure. I fought the good fight, I finished the race, I kept the faith. 2 Tim 4:6-7
Through this experience there is one thing above all else that God has really grown me in and that is forgiveness. By God’s grace I look at the cross, and I think what gospel am I preaching if I can’t forgive and love someone that hurt me. This has been a really rough past two months, but this will not stop me. I will keep pursuing God with everything even if brings more pain. I will keep listening to God, I will keep loving leadership by challenging them if they don’t align with scripture, and if God is willing I will make it to India and serve there permanently.
Thank you to all of those who have been praying for me and supporting me. If you would like to talk to me more about anything my email is [email protected] and my number is 832-361-9462 or you can use Facebook messenger.
(Also if anyone from AIM is reading this and wants me to take this down let me know because I’d rather edit this or take it down than my account to be De-activated. Thank you for letting me keep my account so far, I hope that it will stay up, Love y’all.)
