Well I finally had my first, cry yourself to sleep because you just realized you jump into an eleven month trip where the food is questionable and the toilets don’t flush toilet paper, moment. I know it wont be my last one but I honestly believe it’s all worth while after today, and here’s why.
Last night I was a broken mess crying myself to sleep all I wanted to do was go home. I was tired restless hungry and the idea of having to wake up to rice again just killed me. However, today God made it all worth it. He reminded me the that he has a reason for making me extremely uncomfortable. As he breaks down my walls of security I’m able to see past my own circumstance’s and learn from the people around me.
Today we visited a home/school for children and I learned something you will never be able to learn back in the states. Joy does not come just from money. I saw kids having more fun today just running around, doing handstands in the dirt, and playing duck duck goose then any kid trying to figure out a Wii. It really makes you scratch your head when you see a kid that shares a room with fifteen others, has no running water, and no electronics have more fun then any kid you have ever see before. But this isn’t the only lesson I’ve learned from these kids.
For me I feel it takes quite a bit to feel the holy spirit. The mood has to be just right the right song has to be playing and that’s when I normally feel it. But not today. Today just watching some kids sing a song, which I didn’t even understand because it was in Hindi, I heavily felt the spirit of the lord, and I finally understood what child like faith really means.
So even though I’m not in my comfort zone here at all I’m glad God is using my circumstance to really teach me some lessons. As I continue on this journey my prayer is that I don’t find myself comfortable and instead I find myself looking beyond the circumstances I’m in so that I can see what God Is trying to show me.
