As usual travel days are always so difficult being so full of emotions and wonder of what all is going on. But I am excited for this month. I am excited for the children and the privilege I have with being with a big team of all women.
It is a privilege, but it can also be very difficult because God is taking me in this time of just being all in which is exciting, but it is hard. It is so hard to push past the uncomfortable zone because it is easy being safe. But as i learned from last month pushing past that awkward part is so worth it in the end. I know it will all be worth it because He is worth it.
Though I am processing through all these emotions I will say the first day of ministry has been awesome though it was also hard. I have had little work with special needs children, so when the Lord called me to love on this one child I was like,
“I have never worked in this area before. What if I do not have the patience or how do I meet the child where they are at?”
But God still kept putting that child on my heart, so when they asked who would like to work with him, I shot up my hand right away saying, “I would”. Still not knowing or understand what entails this month with working with him.
But today the man I was working with gave me the details of everything that happened to him. He was taken away, told to have a better life, and a man took him and put a plastic bag over his head to suffocate him over and over again. The loss of oxygen caused him brain damage… he was only 8 years old when this all began to happen. The BYKOTA house found him as a begger in the street and took him in.
My heart broke for what happened to him, and so many emotions and thoughts were running through. This IS real…this is real.
I met him as he slowly walked in with someone helping him with the biggest smile I see on his face. We sit down to work on the computer, but he is very twitchy and keeps saying so many things and even yelling. I wanted to help and do something to soothe and calm him, but all I could do was be present there and listen to Justin Bieber with him because he loves it :).
But looking at him and thinking of the children I worked with in the morning and seeing not long ago he was like them. He walked around, talked and joked about things, and ran playing games. But because of something that happened that was out of his control, he now lives with brain damage, limited to what he was use to.
And I praise God because he loves this boy and has put him somewhere that he will be loved day after day after day. And this month I have the honor to work with him.
Pray for me as the Lord continues to show me how to love him more and more, and give me strength to do so. Also, thank you for all your prayers and support. This is going to be an amazing month, I can already feel it.
