I am His little girl… if I had to sum up what the Lord has been laying on my heart this past week at Training Camp for the World Race would be that I am His little girl.
Now I know this is something that is not a huge profound statement, and you know what the weird thing is usually after something like this, a camp where you are surrounded by awesome people of the Lord you have these awesome “Christian High Experience,” or “AH-HA moments” that the Lord gives you to kind of fill you up for the next season.
What I did get though is peace. Peace knowing that I am where He has called me, and that this next year He is going to rock my World and mold me more in who He has called me to be.
Right now I feel the same, is it a bad thing, no! Because I know for me and so many other people we chase after these emotional highs as if these are the only way we know we are “really” hearing His voice. At some moments at camp I felt something was wrong with me because I was not, nor have I ever fallen down from anything, I don’t speak in tongues, and some people saw visions and things and then there is me.
Stephie just singing and dancing to her Papa, just talking to Him.
“Papa, what does it look for me to be a woman after your own heart? Why am I looking for this overwhelming feeling to know and believe you are there? I hear your voice, I know I do. Papa, I want to know you more, I want to have this special intimacy with you because the truth, just like the song,
“No place I rather be, no place I rather be
Than here in your love, here in your love.”
There is something so beautiful in those words right there. Just being and dwelling in my Papa’s house. Dwelling in His love, and delighting in His truths that He loves me, that He is good, and that He is sovereign, and that I am His little girl. His precious daughter that He delights in.
Some people may wonder, what is so special about being His little girl? This next season of life I really do believe God is going to soften my heart, in a child like understand and faith. Of complete and utter dependence on God.
I am not a girly girl and people who know me is that I am strong, but God is calling to break down these walls, and be vulnerable with others, and especially Him.
I have no idea what these next weeks or months will hold, but I do know that the Lord is working in me and sanctifying me to His perfect plan, and what a beautiful plan that is.
Thank you all for following me on this journey so far, and more to come soon!
