“I am going on adventure!”
Does anyone remember this from the movie the Hobbit, where little Bilbo is running because He decides that he will take the risk and go on an adventure of a lifetime?
To be honest that is how I feel. Walking back and fourth anxious and scared, not knowing the outcome of the adventure. But something inside of you says, “take the leap of faith and go.”
Now here I am running on the adventure about to begin with strange lands and seeing miracles happen. For so long I have waited for this adventure and now it is 23 days away! I will be in South Africa with people I barely even know serving in communities I really have no clue about.
But what an exciting journey it is! God has taught me a lot about faith, and what it means…
FAITH: Complete and utter dependence on God!
Check… I got that! And then God is like, “Do you really trust me so much that all your dependence is on me?”
Me: “ Yeah come on God, I trust you! I mean you are the one and only God! You are in control of everything!”
I say that, but so many times I just say those words and do not mean them because it is one tough thing to really give everything to Him. To give EVERYTHING to Him!
My Fears..My Worries….My Delights…My Anger…My Struggles…My Desires…
But slowly I have been trying because Lord this has not been an easy process because what I am also giving up is my control… because the lack of faith that I have is because I do not think God can do what He says He can do, and who am I to put God in a box?
And that is it!!!
“ I am not something you can put in a box! I am the living and active God, that is in control of all things! Look to the past and remember I was there! Look to the future and know I am there. What I am calling you to do now will not be easy, but trust me and you will see such fruit that you would never imagine. I am taking you to places to show you I have no limits, and show you how Big I am from the miracles I will show you, and from the truth I will reveal to you. I am a God that can come as loud as a lion and as quiet as a mouse. And through all it, I will be there with you. Are you ready?”
Then I look back and see my family, my friends…my life. Things that I know and are familiar to me are there. It is safe and secure and something I call home.
When I look in front of me I see a haze, that is unfamilar and even a little scary, but yet I am drawn to it because I can hear His voice say, “follow me.” Then I take a step it gets clearer and clearer. I stop and smile because it is such a special feeling in your stomach that you do not know what is in front of you, but you have the faith this weird sense that He is there…
So I look back and smile for what He has brought me through, and the people He has blessed me and I thank God for them.
Now I turn ahead, with the heavy pit in my stomach and this crazy joy of uncertainty , knowing I am about to embark on a journey of a life-time! And what a crazy journey this will be!!! So everyone “I am going on an adventure!!!!”
