I have been frustrated with a lot of things this month. From hearing the news that our team would not be visited by our Squad Leaders, to our ministry only being hanging with kids and working on a wall, and being with a new team that you are trying to fully give your heart and trust these people with this spiritual journey that we are on…
To be honest this has been one of the most frustrating months I have experienced on the Race. And it did start with the comparison in my heart of what everyone else around me is doing…
-Loving the women who are working in the bars
– Helping the refugees in No Man’s Land
– Being part of the church planting in Burma
And here we are working on a wall… what eternal glory is that? Hanging out with kids who understand NO English, and who do not even want to learn English.
On this Race I imagined I would have gotten my hands more dirty working with refugees and places and people who have never heard the gospel.
But here I am building a wall, hanging out with kid, and a lot of down time…
I was honest with God letting Him know I was frustrated… is there more I could do? Could you Lord really called me here to build a wall, and play with the kids? How and what is the picture of your glory in all this?
And that is where the Lord began to soften my heart and open my eyes…
“I called you to be faithful to whatever I have called you.”
I paused for a moment, and surrendered my frustration, my confusion, and my hurt and ask the Lord to show me more.!
The Lord was telling me that He has called me to be faithful to whatever He has called me to do whether it is here or back home… He has called me to trust His plan and fully trust what He says…
And honestly that has changed so much for me my eyes began to see that He has such bigger plan than I could ever imagine and I am so thankful for it. So whether He calls me to do mountain top proclaiming His truth, going to a coffee stand and hugging the woman who always there, or even if He calls me to play checkers with some people in the park.
My eyes were beginning to open to the fact that what He has called me to is right in front of my eyes. Loving these kids and these people just as Christ has loved me and remembering my churches motto:
Pursue God, Love Others, and Serve the World
So after the Lord showed me that it was okay to feel this frustration, and that I am called to love and just be where ever the Lord calls me to be faithful, and I will continue to follow and be faithful to where ever He has called me…
