He came here. for the rescue of us all. YOU are here.
wow. where to begin? These past few days have been one of the lowest and highest for me. I started off the middle of the week so down. I couldn’t find God. I
wanted Him so bad. I was so alone and lonely. I wanted to feel Him, but
at the same time I was so angry. One day after work I was suppose to go
stuff my face with yummy delicious baseball food with some good
friends, but had such a rough day I decided I’d go home and just spend
the night with God instead. Once I got home, I was in such a bad mood I
was too angry to even open my Bible. I couldn’t tell you why or how I
got in that state in the 30 min commute home. I was just frustrated.
wanted Him so bad. I was so alone and lonely. I wanted to feel Him, but
at the same time I was so angry. One day after work I was suppose to go
stuff my face with yummy delicious baseball food with some good
friends, but had such a rough day I decided I’d go home and just spend
the night with God instead. Once I got home, I was in such a bad mood I
was too angry to even open my Bible. I couldn’t tell you why or how I
got in that state in the 30 min commute home. I was just frustrated.
I had signed up months ago to go to Pine Cove
for The Launch retreat with my church Watermark. I went to Pine Cove
for summer camp back in high school and LOVED it, so I was super
excited for the labor day weekend retreat. Till it rolled around and I
realized I didn’t really know anyone going. I’m a pretty shy person at
first and I’m having to get use to being 1 (me, myself) and not 2. I knew I would be super sad if I didn’t go though so I sucked it up and went.
for The Launch retreat with my church Watermark. I went to Pine Cove
for summer camp back in high school and LOVED it, so I was super
excited for the labor day weekend retreat. Till it rolled around and I
realized I didn’t really know anyone going. I’m a pretty shy person at
first and I’m having to get use to being 1 (me, myself) and not 2. I knew I would be super sad if I didn’t go though so I sucked it up and went.
what a complete 180! I had sooooooooooo so so much
fun!!!!!!!! Not that I didn’t think I would, but everyone was just so
nice and real. no one felt fake, no one judged. everyone was just there
to celebrate Jesus. I have never felt so loved. I don’t even know how many new friends I made this
weekend, but it is such a warm feeling. I didn’t think I could do it. I
didn’t think I could be me and just me, woody. I really didn’t.
fun!!!!!!!! Not that I didn’t think I would, but everyone was just so
nice and real. no one felt fake, no one judged. everyone was just there
to celebrate Jesus. I have never felt so loved. I don’t even know how many new friends I made this
weekend, but it is such a warm feeling. I didn’t think I could do it. I
didn’t think I could be me and just me, woody. I really didn’t.
But God has better plans. ALWAYS. He knew I
needed to be taken out of my comfort zone.
He knows me and my ways. He
not only showed me I could do it, He filled me with so much joy and
peace. I FELT HIM. again, finally. I just needed to be patient. And the
beauty of it is? I’m allowed to get angry at Him. He STILL loves me at
the end of the day.
it’s a new day. everything will change.
things will never be the same.
we will never be the same.
I feel so refreshed. I now know I can do this. I CAN go on the race and meet even more aMAZing people. I also had the
opportunity to meet with some January racers last week too!!! They were
all so sweet and I am so glad I did that as well. God had pushed me and
I only hope He continues to push me. I know He will and I know it
always won’t be this easy. But I’m so excited to be going in the
direction I am going in!!! I’m excited for my new friendships and
mostly I am excited to feel the Holy Spirit again. He was always there
I just wasn’t looking in the right place. I love that I am living…
opportunity to meet with some January racers last week too!!! They were
all so sweet and I am so glad I did that as well. God had pushed me and
I only hope He continues to push me. I know He will and I know it
always won’t be this easy. But I’m so excited to be going in the
direction I am going in!!! I’m excited for my new friendships and
mostly I am excited to feel the Holy Spirit again. He was always there
I just wasn’t looking in the right place. I love that I am living…
for the GLORY of it all. -DCB
I also found out that:
– I’m pretty good at volleyball, well better than I
thought at least ha.
thought at least ha.
– bobbing for apples in vanilla pudding with dirt and other questionable
items is gross and sticky, but totally fun.
– Pine Cove Woodstock rocked.
– mafia is the best game ever
– late late night balderdash is super fun and a work out for your abs
– the Robbie Seay band is awesome.
– AND I now know what pohoehoe is 😀
PS. Thank you to everyone for being so nice to me and being so real. It means so much to me! I know I still need to write my blog on ‘how I was called into missions’ I’m sorry it is coming soon! I just felt I needed to write this first 😀
