God is ROCKING my world right now!
I simply ask to hear His voice, and He is overwhelming me with His LOVE!
It has been on my heart to write a blog post, but every time I sat down to write, every word escaped me.
It was as if the Lord was saving the words for this special moment.
On Valentine's day, I really wanted to write about God's love.
To rejoice, with my brothers and sisters, in TRUE LOVE.
In GOD's LOVE.
The only word I could come up with was "love".
That was it.
Nothing else has been written on this page since February 14.
I truly believe that God took all my words because HE wanted to write.
Today, I asked God to speak to me.
I was so desperate to hear His voice and feel the simple stillness that came with it.
He spoke.
It was the sweetest sound I have ever heard.
Most kind.
Most gentle.
Most loving.
Indiscernible words, but exactly what my spirit needed to hear.
How is it possible that TODAY seemed like the sweetest
when He has spoken so tenderly to my heart in the past?
I began to ask God that question, and in normal God fashion, He had a really great answer:
His love has NEVER changed.
His love was constant through the times that I was entrenched in sin to this very day.
He has never loved me more or less than He does today.
His love seems sweeter today because I am choosing to recklessly run towards Him and abandon everything that I believe will satisfy me.
My perception has changed.
Because He has changed my heart.
This love is more than any words on a page can describe.
I want everyone to know about it!
Every woman, every man, every child, every nation!
How amazing is it that God is providing just that?!
This is the love He desires for EVERY ONE of His children to experience!
Can you BELIEVE that there are people out there who HAVE NO IDEA?!
WHAT?!
My mind is BLOWN every time I think about that.
And then my heart ACHES to SHARE this love with those people.
But I cannot do it by my own strength.
My heart YEARNS for every person that I encounter on the World Race to have a moment just as this:
Where their heart and mind are overwhelmed with the all-consuming, passionate love of their creator.
I wish that I was able to give every person this love, but unless I am seeking this fountain of love, I am not able to love anyone in the way they were meant to be.
So, I have asked God to teach me about His love.
What is it that separates His love from ours?
(flashback)
When I was in my past relationship, we were seriously discussing marriage.
I wanted to be praying intentionally for our relationship and for our future marriage, so I asked God to guide me in that prayer time.
He led me to the "Love Dare" devotional.
This devotional was created and designed for married couples:
There are short passages describing different aspects of love and then a "dare" to implement that aspect.
Instead of doing the dares, I used the journaling space provided to pray that the Lord would instill that aspect of love in my relationship.
As I worked my way through the devotional, I noticed that the Spirit began to change the way I was praying. He made me realize that the most loving thing I can do for my future husband is to ask God to break my heart and show me the areas that I do not show that aspect of love.
God made me begin to look inward.
It was challenging.
A lot of the issues in my relationship were directly correlated with these dark parts of my heart.
I began to realize that I cannot expect to be loved in a certain way because only God can truly love us.
This was breaking news for not only my romantic relationship, but every relationship the Lord blessed me with.
This devotional made me realize my selfishness.
Made me realize that the first place I should look when a problem arises is inside my own heart.
It made me realize my DESPERATE NEED for Christ.
When this relationship ended, I needed to get rid of all that reminded me of it.
(a bit dramatic, I know, but it was necessary)
I thought I had gotten rid of the devotional, but I found it in the backseat of my car the other day.
I reaction was very unexpected.
My heart leapt for joy.
This devotional served a purpose in the past.
And it will serve a purpose for the future.
I have asked God to teach me about love, so that people may feel the love of Christ.
I have asked God to teach me about love because every relationship I am in should be entrenched with the Lord.
How can I expect to love these people I meet on the World race if I am not seeking the love above all?
I can't.
Once again, the Lord has lead me to intentionally pray about love.
So that my team mates, squad mates, and the nations may experience this all consuming, passionate love.
It is by God's grace alone.
Because of God's love alone.
