I was wondering when that feeling would creep over me….you know that feeling where something is familiar. That feeling when you do something over and over again and suddenly you realize it isn’t new anymore. I knew it would happen eventually, but was caught off guard when it did. Unexpectedly, I started just “being” on this thing we call the World Race. I stopped trying to make a secret escape route home and started living.
However, from time to time this familiar and comfortable thought pattern can get interrupted….
According to the dictionary, a reverberation or reverb is created when a sound is produced in an enclosed space causing a large number of echoes to build up and then slowly decay as the sound is absorbed by the walls and air. This is most noticeable when the sound source stops but the reflections continue, decreasing in amplitude, until they can no longer be heard.
Often times this is what it is like to receive news from home, whether that comes in the form of an email, skype message/conversation, FB message, etc. It all hits the same. Before your brain can comprehend what it is doing, your eyes have already skimmed the message and your heart is heavy or maybe happy. The sound waves just bounce back and forth long after we close the message or stop the conversation…back and forth back and forth…
If I have learned anything, words carry much weight. Messages carry much weight. Many people thought I was going on the race to escape things, and sometimes I would like to think I am “away from it all.” But all it takes is one message, one sentence, one word to bring us right back to the beginning…right back home…right back to the place we where when we left. Our problems are staring at us in the face…sometimes they are so close it feels like you are nose to nose with them…and here we thought we were running away!
Growth is something that happens so often here it is almost a natural part of our everyday life. That is the comfortable state we have fallen into. How do we prevent the times when our growth is stunted? When our past haunts us? When we are pulled away from the good place we have finally reached? How can we stop the reverberations that bounce around and echo in our minds?
Learning how to filter the junk that is thrown at us is a process just like any other. Understanding why people have contacted us or why they have not. Understanding what we should let echo in our minds and what we shouldn't. It is all a learning process, something I am trying to understand while being millions of miles from those I am connecting with. Remembering one message, one sentence, one word, one sound….can echo long after the conversation is over…
