Patience

 

let me tell you, if you know me you know this is something i have had to deal with here lately. Patience with work, family, my moms surgery, leaving, and life, taking time to soak life in and not always run run run wake up at 6 sleep at mid night and the same thing again its exhausting.

 However my biggest battle was with work, a daily struggle for what became way to long 8 months atleast. It all started over the summer, I walked into work unhappy, and left unhappy, the people were unhappy and it made me unhappy it was like that joy was being sucked out of me and i hated it, i hated that it was doing that to me. It was bringing tears to my eyes at work, occasional trips to the basement to cry, to use the “bathroom”, it was hurting me, id leave that place in peices crying for help, it was even coming to the place where i was pulling myself away from others and laying in bed depressed crying to the Lord.

 I would cry out for help, I needed the Lord and no matter how much i felt the Lord I felt sattan that much more I continued to cry our for help, for guidance and an escape, I couldnt do it any longer and in a economy that is corupted right now and 10% unemplyeed I wanted fired, how terrible, i loved my job though i loved my sweet hearted patients, they always made me smile.

I loved the relationships I had with them and that they would bring me candy to a dental office haha and i could discuss God with some of them and my missions trips ive been on, and one guy called me his sister, we were Christs family. Ah how amazing. They didnt see my pain inside though they would see my fake smile, my smile for them because they were the ones who brought joy to my job, but the ones i worked with were breaking my heart. I was hurting.

Then did i know God had a different plan for me, he had a different better job oppotunity for me. I had a call from a different office offerening me a job closer to home, I prayed about it and turned it down though since i woud be leaving in october.. am i crazy!

Little did i know God had that all planned for me, he was ok with that, he wanted me to do that, he had a better office in mind, a different office called me offering me a job that would actually benefit me as a missionary, an oral surgeons office, where i could provide more of a standard of care for people later down the road. How amazing is He!! I just had to be patient and wait, not only that but the job is alittle more money to help pay for my trip whoopie!!

God is so full of amazing surprises you just have to be patient and wait on Him, now im glad i didnt get fired lol. He has big big plans we just have to trust in Him and I know that, just like all of my supporters, God already knows all of them I have to trust Him and have Patience and still do my part. Some times it may seem like we have waited forever, but to God it is like we have waited a day, and we need to cry out to him for help every day not just in these types of struggles either.

 Of course the start of a new job is stressful and i was alittle discouraged today but as i was driving to work a friend of mine text me saying

Im praying for your work day!

 I just broke down sobbing, that was the Holy Spirit telling Shannon to pray for me then and to let me know, I needed that, and just so you know, that was one of the best days i have had. I am so blessed and i have this amazing joy and happiness excitment its just so great and my office now wants to hear about the race everyday how wonderful God i love you, your glorious!!!!

 

sorry this is long and rambles but it is something so great that has happend in my life i just had to be patient and wait on the Lord and not make my own path.

 

God Bless

 

being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully- Colossians 1:11