So the date on this was changed to Friday even though it is 1/20/10 but the day all of this excitment took place was the 15th. On Friday Dayton Ohio was blessed with amazing new Young Life leaders and I was suppose to one of them however God has a different plan for me. It has been a struggle however because I have went through training with my brothers and sisters, we have grown together and slowly but surly let our walls down and become a community together, our hearts became one together. We love the same Lord and have the same love for high school kids to them Christ and our freedom how He died on the cross for our Sins and how we are made to live a new life for Him and be reborn. It was so hard and honestly almost selfish in a way to watch my brothers and sisters go off knowing they were going to glorify the Lord and do what they feel called to and I could I was going to have to wait and I wanted to be in their shoes so bad. I wanted people cheering for me coming up yelling my name so excited and picking me up and hunging me so excited I was now a part of their team at their High School but that didnt happen I didnt get to experience that, instead I stood in the back crying, with tears of joy for them because it was so beautiful and talking pictures for my “family”. It was like me “letting go” and it was really hard knowing they would be doing leader things now and i couldnt take part in that excitment anymore. However, that was all in Gods plan, it has all been in Gods plan he wanted me to learn with these certain group of people I may not know exactly why yet but there is a reason he has had the world race oct 2010 planned for me my whole life.. how crazy to imagine ive only known for a month.. wild!
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Yeah it is eteremly hard, harder than you could imagine, I cried more than you would think, sometimes I dont even know why, such a female I know right ha. I have to contine to remind myself these are my brothers and sisters in Christ weve grown together, this is what God is calling them to, to save broken hearts in high schools and share HIs love and truth and He is just calling me to do it else where but is just isnt until October. That doesnt mean im falling off the earth, I am still their sister, we are still a community I will still be here I will still support them and pray for them every day and help them when ever they would need it. ahh but it is teaching me patience that is for sure try waiting almost another year for something you want so bad, I wish october was tomorrow but it will be here before I know it, but I do know that. It is also trusting me to trust in the Lord fully because life isnt about me and I learned that through this because if it was I would be leading now and going on the world race but I cant do it all its about sacrifices and the Lord is teaching me so much I am so greatful for that this is the first step. it is hardto explain to girls when they say oh I wish you were our leader or where did you get placed to explain all this them if they dont know Christ or dont understand fully but I pray that my act obediance will be a witness for them. I know this is tacky as well but my furtune from a cookie Friday said “you will show your face to the ones who truly matter” and it fell out on my Bible sunday at church when I was struggling with the placement and financial struggles hmmmm think about it 🙂 God is Good! I love Him he is showing me so much of his glory!
! Yeah it is eteremly hard, harder than you could imagine, I cried more than you would think, sometimes I dont even know why, such a female I know right ha. I have to contine to remind myself these are my brothers and sisters in Christ weve grown together, this is what God is calling them to, to save broken hearts in high schools and share HIs love and truth and He is just calling me to do it else where but is just isnt until October. That doesnt mean im falling off the earth, I am still their sister, we are still a community I will still be here I will still support them and pray for them every day and help them when ever they would need it. ahh but it is teaching me patience that is for sure try waiting almost another year for something you want so bad, I wish october was tomorrow but it will be here before I know it, but I do know that. It is also trusting me to trust in the Lord fully because life isnt about me and I learned that through this because if it was I would be leading now and going on the world race but I cant do it all its about sacrifices and the Lord is teaching me so much I am so greatful for that this is the first step. it is hardto explain to girls when they say oh I wish you were our leader or where did you get placed to explain all this them if they dont know Christ or dont understand fully but I pray that my act obediance will be a witness for them. I know this is tacky as well but my furtune from a cookie Friday said “you will show your face to the ones who truly matter” and it fell out on my Bible sunday at church when I was struggling with the placement and financial struggles hmmmm think about it 🙂 God is Good! I love Him he is showing me so much of his glory!
