My team leaves and I continue to lay there crying, but now its not just tears of pain but tears of crying out to the Lord. God I never realized how much I truly love these girls, but you love them even more, God I pray I see Hope again that Friday wasn’t the last day Lord I have no idea how I will see here since she isn’t in the bar but I pray you provide a way. God I want to see my sisters in heaven!
Jessica comes home and I am already asleep but when I wake up in the morning she tells me that Joy said Hope will be at the bar Thursday to see us and say goodbye. God thank you for hearing my prayers you are so good!!
I anxiously anticipated Thursday I couldnt wait to see her one last time.
We walk up to the bar she used to work at, and there she is all cheery eyed and happy to see us. Joy and 
Hope provide us with gifts, ear rings they bought us so every time we wear them we will remember them. I haven’t stopped wearing them since she gave them to us, they are beautiful! We take pictures and exchange emails and facebook. Lots of hugs are given, and by lots I mean we basically didn’t let go of each other. Finally after a half hour of hugs Hope holds my hand and asks with tears in her eyes ‘how will I ever see you again’ (well I didn’t think I would see you today but God proved me wrong) I say maybe we will be back to Thailand someday, or I heaven, I don’t think she caught on when I said that. Then she said ‘ok you go now, I cry, I love you bye’ and she leads me to the road.
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hat night we did lanterns which are a big tradition in Thailand, there was a heart on mine where I wrote Joy and Hopes name and then a prayer for the girls, and I lit it and let it go up in the air, it was a symbol of me releasing these girls to God and fully trusting His plan for them.
It didn’t really hit me till I came to debrief, when we were worshiping that I will not be seeing these girls again but I kept praying I would see them in heaven. A friend and squadmate Krystle comes up to me and says God gave her a vision, He wanted me to know how proud He was of me, for what I did this month, how I glorified Him, and how I poured my entire heart and life into these girls, she saw us sitting at a table eating together taking part in a feast but it wasn’t just any place we were eating it was in Heaven.. she said that I cried and then it hit me she said heaven so I repeated the word.. heaven? Yes heaven and I bawled, Lord I pray I will be seeing them in Heaven indulging in a feast together, and they will have accepted Christ and the truths I told them! 
So in an hour we are heading to Malaysia, I know it is time for me to let go of Thailand and the girls and to go into a new country full force bold and ready to love. Our visa’s expired the 27th so we could really use your prayers for safety and the Lords favor as we cross the border, we don’t really have the money to pay the fee they change us, but couldn’t afford to update our visas either.. oh how you have to love living by faith!! It is a 24 hour bus ride so this should be fun. Also we have no idea what we are doing next month, we start in Kuala Lumpur and then will be traveling all over Malaysia interceding for the country, planting churches, doing Bible studies, kids camps and anything else that may be asked of us. So please keep my team and team refresh who we will be working with in your prayers daily!!! Love you all ill be seeing you very soon! J
