Today has been a very difficult day for me. I'm just so weighed down my heart is breaking right in front of my eyes. It's been coming for a while but I would always focus on something different, and that's when something goes wrong in that area. My whole world is a mess right now and it's finally come to a breaking point. I realize I can't fix any of this mess. So I pray and pray and God always shows up (not that he ever left). I usually fill him the strongest when I'm alone in my room putting up my already wrinkled clothes. Yes you read that right already wrinkled. I have a bad habit of putting that to the side. Today I work on my support letters, and sit here thinking and praying to God hoping that I'm hearing him right because I can't do any of this on my own. He comforts me in ways that can only be explained by THAT'S MY GOD! He knows how to talk me, and it's always through the music I listen to or just looking outside. At his creation seeing the sun shine, rain, or snow, clouds so flurry and new, and the birds fighting over a French Fry. All are God's way of showing me I have nothing to worry about he will take care of it. It's sad to say but I have a habit of focusing on everything else that really in the end doesn't matter. Who cares if your team won the super bowl, a new episode of the walking dead is on, or who's going to be at church this evening. It doesn't matter if my hair looks perfect in that picture (cause I will probably hate it anyway). What matters is what should have matter from the beginning. That's my relationship with the One who never lets me down, the one who is and was and always will be. No matter how messy life is God never changes he's the same from beginning to end. He is black and white, cut and dry, and Love with no boundaries.
Loving with no boundaries is the main thing I hope to get out of this trip, I Want to love like God loves. Which is a crazy kind of love that has no reason or explanations it just is. I've come to realize this world we live in has a messed up view of what love is. Most people think that love has to have strings attached. God's love has no strings attached to it. None of this I scratch your back you scratch mine. He just is, he loves with no boundaries, no strings, and defiantly none of this what you look like, color, race, religion, stereotyping crap. God doesn't care about you past, he loves you anyway, I want to be able to love like that. We all have the same Color of blood, so why hate on someone because they look a little different, or because they are a sinner. I sin the only difference between a "good girls" sins and a "bad girls" sins is that "good girls" sins aren't on display for everyone to see.
So I ask that if you are reading this that you will be praying to me and my squad. That we learn to love with no Boundaries. I ask that you pray that the devil stays away from our hearts and minds, so we can focus on the one and only and the opportunities we will get to Share that Love with everyone we come into contact with starting now. Also if you would like to support me you can do that by clicking on the support me section to the left. Thank you for your time.
