For the past month and a half I have been struggling with past sins coming up.
I've come to the realize that you can't run from your past.
I know because if I haven't mentioned before….. I'm a runner.
I run from my feelings.
I run from my problems.
I even run from God…. That's not something I'm proud of, and it's extremely hard for me to break the habit.
This morning in church I was praying that God would help me and asking why it's so hard to fight.
You see I've always been a peacemaker. Staying out of the squabbles of life and never letting people into mine.
So now knowing that I have to stop running and fight for the things that mean the most to me .
Laziness's ugly face show up.
That seems like so much work. Do I really want to fight that hard?
Or do I want to give into this sin that leaves me feeling down and unaccomplished?
One the one hand is I choose to fight my heart will be filled with so much love. While the other option will only leave me wanting more……. This is a huge decision to make and it can't be taken lightly. Fight or Not Fight?
I choose……………… To be continued
Just kidding….. I choose to…….. FIGHT!!!!
Sure I will be tired most of the time, but I would rather be tired and know that I kicked butt in battle. Then to turn tail and run like a coward.
It's going to be hard and I'm not going to want to do everything that needs to get done.
But that's the price I have to pay to truly be free in Christ.
Sure you can be a Christian and still be held captive by your human nature, because you either run from it or pretend like it's not even there.
Let me just say from experience…. Sin can change who you truly are with out you even knowing it until it's to late.
But Freedom…… Now that's worth fighting for.True freedom comes when you lay it all out on the table. If you think you are fine. Pray for God to reveal anything that might be holding you back. It's easier to fight when you know where that problem is. Releasing these things changes everything.
I love my free self…. And I want her back….So from this one on I am going to fight until I get to the point where there is more of God and very little of me.
If you would please pray for strength on my part this isn't going to be easy.
