So much for blogging every week until we leave…but I am resolved to do better.
So I have to confess, that although I have busied myself with the logistics of preparing myself with the world race, I have not really been preparing myself spiritually…or even mentally. This revelation comes after spending a week away from my busy life on a very relaxing Alaskan cruise. One would think this would be an optimal time to sort of refocus, spend some really good quality time with God praying for the race and the countries we will be going to etc. Alas, I found myself thinking of all the things I have to do before the race, and planning ahead to what will happen when the race ends, bypassing any thoughts of the upcoming year. Once again today I found myself doing the same thing with regards to training camp. I am flying home after my vacation and thinking of the business of the week to come. During my 2 hour layover in San Jose, despite the opportunity to spend time with God and read my Bible, I made a to do list of things I need to do this week before camp, as well as the things that I need to do after camp.
Now, if you’ve known me even 5 minutes you would know that I am a planner, and I like to control my plans, hence this type of activity is not unusual for me. The obvious downfall is that I completely avoid the important parts that are beyond my control. This is kind of where I leave a place for God to do his thing, but take no active part in preparing for Him. I am fortunate that this realization comes before training camp so that I can at least prepare a little before then, and of course more so for the actual race.
This is my goal for this week, and I am beseeching all of you to ask me about this through out the week and during training camp to keep me accountable. I return to work tomorrow, and it will be a very busy day, as I have to go to both of my jobs to make up time for being gone. This can and will easily stress me out and distract me from God. For this reason I am going to fast so that I can start off the week focusing on God and my dependence on him. The rest of the week I will be spending the majority of my quiet times focusing on either the World Race or Training Camp. My mind tends to wonder to my to do list during quiet times and I begin to pray for those things. So my goal is to stay focused on God and God alone and allowing him to prepare my heart for what is to come. You can pray for focus for me and for God to really speak to me this week. Also that I will be vulnerable to Him and listen to Him instead of my own musings.
