My friends and I have this insider of saying, “I’m the worst” whenever we mess up on the silliest thing. You can just be playing Mario Kart and run over a banana and we’d just say, “I’m the worst!” It’s just a silly joke but there are some things I’m actually the worst at! For example, I’m the worst at being on time anywhere, I’m the worst at keeping my room clean, and if you haven’t noticed, I’m the worst at updating blogs regularly (which I hope to change). There’s one particular thing that I’m the worst at and I doubt it’ll change, that’s saying good-bye.
This entire week leading up to launch has been bitter-sweet because every day, I was able to see how much God has blessed me with my family and friends but I also had to say goodbye to all those blessings. Saturday was my away party and everyone who walked in put a smile on my face. I sat there just looking at everyone and knowing how much they all pray for me, support me, and love me and I wasn’t afraid anymore. Then three days later I was able to celebrate my birthday with everyone and it was so special receiving good wishes from my family and friends. It just so happened that it was also my last day attending NEXT, my churches young adult’s ministry and I was able to celebrate there. Although I had a going away party and celebrated my birthday this last week, I refused to cry. I told myself not cry not because I wanted to be strong, but because there is nothing to be sad about. I will admit though, as I started hugging my brother’s and best friend’s goodbye yesterday, I did shed ONE tear. I haven’t even said the hardest good-bye yet, my parents. They’ll be with me till Sunday and I know I’ll cry more than just one tear then. Yes, I’m going to miss my family, friends, my dog and I wish they were all coming with me but God has a plan wherever I’m going and a plan for everyone back home and I’m trusting His plan. Saying good-bye is difficult and instead I’ve been saying, “see you in eleven months!” And I can’t wait to come back after those eleven months sharing all the wonderful things God did!
Love you guys and thank you for making it difficult to say good-bye
