Recently I’ve been yearning for God to show up in my life in HUGE ways. I hear so many stories from people on the team who see these miracles happening in their lives. Part of me tries to figure out some kind of formula: if I do this, and pray for this, then God will do this. But I believe God is bigger than that. Instead of handing me a miracle on a silver platter, I believe he is showing me small miracles in my day to day life and asking me to see them in a big way.
If I look back on the past six months, I see everyday miracles. He provided me with a home to stay in rent-free, giving me the opoprtunity to stay and work at Trinity. He’s given me a wonderful family to babysit for. He’s given me a second job at Starbucks wich I love. He’s blessed me with food that comes out of nowhere so that my body and health can be sustained. Yesterday, I had people who loved me enough to pray for me. Today I found a $20 bill on my desk that had a post-it note on it that said “for your trip.” This morning, I woke up and took a breath. Today it is a miracle that I am alive.
There was a band I listened to in High School called “Breathing Machine” and one of their songs has a line that says, “You say you’ve never seen a miracle with your own eyes, but baby have you ever seen the sun rise?” I wish so badly that my heart and mind were always there. I want to see the daily blessings in life as God’s biggest miracles.
Although part of me would love to see someone hand me $13,000 or see my life fall beautifully into place before December, another part of me wants to remain so dependant on my God. And I think if I saw all those things before me, I would lose my awareness that He is working in mighty ways even in the smallest areas of my life.
