It’s midnight and officially my 24th birthday. I’m celebrating it in Thailand and life definitely does not suck. I’m sitting here on my bed, thinking and telling God about how different I want this next year to be than any year of my life prior.
I want a fresh anointing. I want a renewed passion and hunger for Jesus. I want to learn to be disciplined. I want to worship like never before. I want to [literally] hear God’s voice on a daily basis. I want the Holy Spirit to have complete reign in my life. I want to walk in so much FREEDOM! Freedom from my endless insecurities, freedom from hopelessness, freedom from laziness, freedom from wanting to please people, freedom from pride, freedom from the fear of man, freedom from complacency and settling. Freedom from every single dang thing that keeps me from pursuing Jesus with all of my heart, mind, strength and soul.
I want to live like Him and love like Him. Unconditionally. I want to have prophetic dreams. I want to be a prophetic voice. I want to be bold in my words and actions. I want to see everyone in my family love and follow Jesus the way they were created to. I want them to walk in the fullness of His love. I want to walk in signs and wonders and have the kid of faith that raises the dead and breaks down the walls of the strongest cynic. I want to walk out the authority Jesus told me I have.
I want to see God’s face.
I want to be so much like Jesus that when people look into my eyes they see His eyes that burn like fire and when I speak that they would hear His voice like rushing waters. I want to believe with my heart all of the truth I know in my head. To be His beloved one.
I’m surrendering this year to the Lord like I’ve never surrendered it before. So God, I surrender to you my expectations of my life after the Race. Every anxiety. I surrender every relationship that distracts me from you. Every heartache. I surrender trying to fix my family. I surrender my insecurity and weakness. I surrender my pride and my comfort. I surrender trying to change people. I surrender my bad attitude and my selfishness. I surrender trying to fit the mold that people place on me. I surrender my need to be understood. I surrender trying to keep it together. I surrender this year to you and everything in it. My life is all yours anyway.
