As I am working on my fundraising letters and figuring out different ideas that I am going to do, I am becoming so on fire for the Lord and what His calling for me is. Fundraising is stressful and nerve-racking but this is for something greater than me and God is right beside me helping me along. The emotions I am feeling is so hard to explain to anyone, they are all over the place. But I do know God is working inside of me and I am sitting back and relishing in His amazingness.
This year started off so rough for me and has continued to go down hill. January, I had to have emergency surgery (gallbladder was infected
). I have never had surgery and saying I was nervous is just an understatement. I just prayed to God and asked Him to be with me and help bring peace and healing. And of course, He did. As time went by things between my boyfriend and I became to get rough and distant from each other. We had been together for five years and I just prayed to God that things would work out. I remember I just kept asking God for it to work because I could not lose him. But as time went on the further we got from one another and finally it ended.
This all has just happened and I feel broken, sad, devastated, and hurt but I know God has huge plans and is beside me helping me through this pain. As I look back I realize that I had been putting God after this guy and made this person my number one. During this time I called out to God and He was there slowly showing me what He wanted from me. Finally I realized what God was wanting and that is all of me. I had lost my fire for Him and I need to get that back. I filled out my application and online interview and waited. Within a couple days and two days after the relationship ended I received the most life-changing and amazing news, right when God knew I needed it. God’s timing is perfect and on His watch; sometimes I wished I had one of those watches haha. Since then everything has been falling into place and it just blows me away. When we start living and focusing on His plan and not our own, He blesses us with so much and I am so thankful to have such a loving and great Father. As this years continues to go on, my future is looking better and brighter and I cannot wait to spread His incredible love around this amazing world that He has created for us. Words can’t express the excitement that comes with each day. I cannot wait to meet my wonderful squad mates at training camp and then to do God’s work with them for 11 months.
Thank you for the support and the prayers. God will truly bless you. <3
