there’s nothing I hold onto.

 

Receiving financial blessings this go around has been tough for me. You’re probably thinking…wait, I blessed you with my hard earned finances and it was hard for you to accept? That’s silly. It is. It’s actually really silly.

 

There’s this little thing called pride that tends to rear its ugly head now and again. It happens at the most inopportune times, like when I’m laying by the pool with friends and they ask about support, and then I gradually change the subject because I feel guilty asking for help. Or, when I’m talking with someone about the World Race and they offer to donate, and then I say “no, you really don’t have to do that…just pray for me.”

 

What I’ve learned in the past few weeks is this: It is really hard not to cling to the things of the world. I die daily to my own expectation of having a  “real” job or a certain amount of money in my savings account. Even in all my doubting, Jesus thinks I’m worth it; He’s placed me in specific situations so that I could be the recipient of His provision through others. I have an incredible support system. People support me in ministry because they love me, they want to bless me, and they believe in what the Lord is doing through me, not because they feel pressured. As soon as I let go of the feelings of pride and guilt when receiving donations, the Lord began to bless me abundantly. Open hands and a willing heart is all that it takes.

 

You (my blog-readers, supporters, prayer warriors, family, and friends) have been an expression of the Lord’s love and faithfulness to me. You have stood with me in times that I really wanted to say no to the future because of uncertainty of finances and other factors, yet I still chose to say yes because of your continued support. I’m learning to rest in His promises of today. So, thank you. Thank you for loving me so well. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for encouraging me. And, thank you for partnering with me.

 

Since I wrote my last support blog, the Lord has been completely rocking my world with provision. You can find a few stories of how the Lord has given His continued confirmation of this calling and how I have been blessed through the process of raising support in my next blog; He has taken me into such a deeper place of understanding His promises throughout the past few months.

 

 

 

 

 

I’ve had this song on repeat all day! It’s kind of lengthy, but you should definitely take the time to listen. Join me in speaking this as a prayer over my life.