I’ve been traveling non-stop for the past week with my fellow logisticizers, Daniel and Juliette, plus our squad leaders Joshua and Lia. We’ve been scouring Malaysia for the PERFECT place for debrief for our squad. This week hasn’t been easy, but it’s been amazing. My eyes are possibly now cross-eyed from staring at my computer for so long and I’ve maybe made a million phone calls, but I’m SO overwhelmed with joy and love for the 4 people around me. I’m SO overwhelmed with thankfulness that I’ve been blessed to serve my P squad family in the logistics role.
Sometimes, on days like today actually, when I’m nauseous and puking on the side of the road from car sickness, I wonder how I managed to land a role in logistics. I’m often irresponsible. I’m sketchy. I’m terrible with money. And, I hate being serious. All of those things are qualities that don’t exactly scream “pick me” when it comes to leadership roles.
But, I had a huge revelation while us 5 were eating dinner together a few nights ago. It was our first night on the road and we decided to assign “roles” amongst us. As we had a round-table conversation going on about who was gifted in what area, we realized that everyone was actually already portraying the role that we had just called out in them. We were trying to assign ourselves to talents that we’ve already learned to walk in during the course of this year. I realized that if one person at that table had a different personality or gifting, our leadership team wouldn’t mesh well together like we do. It was a humbling and awesome moment.
God has placed so many random people in our paths the past few days. We’ve received abundant blessings and been able to share love with people in “every day life” situations.
Last night, we met a brother and sister from Chicago. Elizabeth just finished up serving two years with the Peace Corp in the Philippines. I was talking with her about what she learned and what her plans are for when she goes home; we began to talk about our passions and realized that both of us have a huge desire to end human trafficking. As I was telling her about some of the things I’ve learned this year, I realized how much I have to say. I couldn’t stop the words from flowing out of my mouth…it was crazy. Even if we were only able to talk for one night, I was able to encourage her to pursue her passion.
Daniel, Juliette, Lia, and Joshua have done the same for me over the past week. I’ve shared with them a lot of things that are on my heart for when I get back home; they have encouraged me in amazing ways.
While we were sitting around the campfire last night, Daniel asked me what the 3 things are that most I’m passionate about. Daniel is the question master. In all honesty, I actually don’t like answering questions, but working with him in logistics has definitely grown me in this area. The questions are always ones that make me think about things that I never want to voice, because then it means that I have the possibility of failing. I try to deflect them, but that never works so I give up and reluctantly answer. As I was staring at the flames of the fire, I realized that I WANT to voice my passions to people. I can’t wait for others to ask questions that stir my spirit…I have to ask myself the tough questions that I often try to avoid.
During the past week, I’ve gotten a small understanding of how blessed I am. I’ve been surrounded by 4 people that have hearts of gold; people that have allowed me to be myself and fail miserably sometimes, but still make the choice to believe in me. I’ve met random people that needed me to show them who Christ is, an incredible honor that I take too lightly sometimes. I’m overwhelmed by the abundant blessings that the Lord has given me this week and SO thankful for the rejuvenation of my spirit.
