my heart is:
overwhelmed.
broken.
weary.
refreshed.
hopeful.
full.
my heart is to fight human trafficking.
I used to ignore my heart. I used to avoid feeling, loving, and being passionate about things. I used to let fear hold the reigns of my heart. I feared that my heart was too big and if I gave pieces of it away then it would lessen who I was. I feared that pouring all of myself into something would only result in disappointment. I feared that I would give all of myself, yet still not be quite enough. If I didn’t try then I couldn’t fail. If I didn’t share my passions then people wouldn’t want to hear what I had to say. If I didn’t speak then I couldn’t be judged or misunderstood.
As I’m sitting in Thailand for the second time in the past year, I’m completely overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by the fact that I said yes to the passions in my heart, which meant a radical change in my life. Overwhelmed by the fact that the Lord actually is who He says He is. That in letting Him lead me through this journey of faith that often times feels as though I’m walking in the dark, He has been faithful in giving me the desires of my heart. Overwhelmed by the fact that I’m no longer talking about my desire to change the world through fighting human trafficking, but am actually living out the the passion that stirs life within me. That yesterday I was blessed to be able to play volleyball with sweet Thai girls in an orphanage that prevents children from being sold into brothels. Overwhelmed by the fact that the Lord might have used this journey of the World Race and squad leading to prepare my heart into one that beats for human trafficking because He is actually going to use me to change the world. It’s exciting. It’s terrifying. It’s surreal.
With that being said, the Lord is stirring a lot of things within me; I’ve just begun to share the vision for the27project (the organization that God is using me to start) with people. You can read more about the27project on the website : www.speaktothehope.blogspot.com. Some of B-squad will be running in the first ever 27project race at the end of the month. It’s not very organized, it’s not very serious, and it’s not about being the fastest runner or the most in shape. It’s about beginning a movement for an organization in the very place that the passion behind it was birthed. It’s about a group of young adults that have chosen to give their lives for the Kingdom. It’s about taking a stand and using the voice that the Lord has given you to create hope. I think it’s incredible that we are spending time in countries that are engulfed by human trafficking; this race represents a change that is on the horizon.
The injustice of human trafficking ignites my heart; it brings tears to my eyes, it brings fire to my bones, it brings life to my soul. It’s ironic that I’ve avoided my heart most of my life, because it’s all that I have to give to this issue. I don’t have the answers. I certainly don’t have the money. But, I do have the heart. I have a heart that has learned to fight for people. If that’s the one thing that I take away from my journey with the World Race, then I’m ok with that. My home changes every 4-6 days. My community changes weekly. The country in which I reside changes monthly. But, my heart for the Lord is the only thing in this crazy life that is consistent. And, it’s enough. It really is.
If you’d like to sponsor someone that is running in the 10K for Cambodia, please go to the27project website (speaktothehope.blogspot.com)and click donate. All proceeds will go to safe-houses that support victims of human trafficking in the Cambodia/Thailand region.
Use your voice to create a ripple of change, it’s needed.
