“For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven.” Ecclesiastes 3:1
As my time on the race comes to an end I keep thinking about what’s next; about how this season I’ve been in for the past 9 months will abruptly stop and I just move on to the next thing. It’s overwhelming because I have so many options to do or be whatever I want. In 2 weeks I will be back in the states with a fresh start. I genuinely feel like that’s what is happening. I get another chance to get things right. To do better, to be better. The other day I randomly wrote all the things I want to be when I return home on a napkin, and today I will turn that napkin into a blog. So here we go.
I want to be a better sister to my siblings. I want to be someone they look up to and tell their friends about. I want to be a daughter who can help carry my parents’ burdens and sit with them during trials. For, well, my whole life really, I was the one causing the trials and now I want to be able to pray with them and cry with them through the hard times. I want to be more intentional with my friends; I want to be honest with them and take time to show them I care. I want to have the courage to tell people when things hurt me instead of ignoring it. I use to get so hurt by people then ignore them until I got over myself. I have learned a lot about false harmony since then and refuse to let it continue. I want to use my humor in a genuine way to bring light. I would use my sarcastic humor as a defense mechanism or as a passive way of communication. I want to be the girl I know I am despite the way others want me to be. Sometimes I think my friends at home will like me better if I went back to my old self, but then I remember that I like who I have become much more. I want to be firm in my identity as a daughter of the king. Being a Christian is not easy- but I have come to terms with that and have seen the benefits. I want to be kind and inviting even when I don’t feel like it. I am SUCH a feeler and react solely off of my emotions. I was/am notorious for being the worst person to talk to in the mornings. But I’m working on it, mom and dad. Lastly, I want to help others every chance I get. Whether that’s paying for someone’s Starbucks or carrying someone’s groceries to their car. I don’t know. I feel like I always think of doing these things but then get nervous and don’t. But that would literally make anyone’s day. It’s the little things ya know.
There’s a lot more but these were the ones I felt inclined to share. SEE YOU IN TWO WEEKS AMERICA!!!!!!!!!!
