I have a lot of fear, from walking alone in the dark to the idea of not being able to walk when I hit 30. I’ve had fear all my life and in the past I even let a lot of those fears rule over my life. I tell you this so you understand the immense power God has over fear, from the moment I was told that I was accepted to go on the WR I had an intense happiness as well as fear rolling in my stomach. Knowing that I’m going to change drastically through the progress of the WR caused a fear to well up inside me.
Not even a week after I got the call of acceptance I saw demons. Late at night having a hard time sleeping, suddenly I had fear gripping me paralyzing my body. Fear I hadn’t felt sense I had started my walk with the lord. I open my eyes only to see 3 demons jumping around my bed trying to grab at me! If it hadn’t been for the fact that I was paralyzed with fear I probably would have screamed. The demons looked like they were created specifically to scare ME personality, as if the demons looked into my mind found what frightens me the most and took that form.
I then did what I had for years when anything scared me while in bed. I forced myself to curl up in a ball with the blanket pulled up over my head begging that the demons would leave me so that I could sleep. The next night I was upstairs at my neighbor’s apartment telling her, her husband, and our other neighbor about the demons and how I was just going to avoid them by exhausting myself to sleep like a rock every night. They prayed over me telling me that avoiding the situation is the opposite of what god wanted from me, they had gotten a word for me. When I left for the WR I would see things that scare me worse than this and that I should stop fighting against the Holy Spirit and let it fill my sails taking me past the demons and into the direction he wants me.
I know it’s silly but for the next two days whenever I felt fear start to creep in or I saw a glimpse or the demons that had scared me I would just envision God with a sword and say “God can slice you to bits and pieces.” Let me tell you, once you forgo trying to overcome fear yourself and just let the lords strength surround you there is nothing that can scare you.
Hugs to everyone ^_^
~~Sonja
Okee Dokee! I have no Idea how to start this Blog, SO I’m just going to tell you something that has happened recently in my life and go from there. I figure it’s like a Journal…Except I expect people to read this. So have at ‘er and let’s see what you think.
