For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning. Psalm 30:5
I laid in the hammock, cuddled up with one of my dearest friends, saying one of my tougher goodbyes. As he spoke words of encouragement over me, and tears began to roll down my cheeks. We laid there for a few more moments, and cried quietly. We knew it was bound to happen, but we just didn't realize how fast it had crept up on us. I don't think anyone has. I climbed in the car to head back to the city, and anxiety slowly built up in the pit of my stomach. The reality of it all was seeping in, and there was no looking back.
Where has the time gone? The year has turned to months, the months into weeks, and the weeks are now days. My first goodbye party was a little over a week ago, and of course I lost it. These tears weren't sad though. They were happy tears. Tears running down my face as a sign of my affection and love for these people. People that have been more of a family than anything. People that took me under their wing from day one, and have turned me into the person I am today. These beautiful, crazy, cheerleading people are my family….they're home for me. The tears that night were tears of joy. The tears today….those were tears of sadness.
I hadn't prepared myself for sad tears, but I knew that they needed to happen. A time of grieving. Grieving over this chapter that is closing for now, so that I can begin this new chapter…..this new journey in life. These next two weeks will be filled with grieving, but it will be beautiful. It will be God placing His hand on my shoulder, telling me it's ok, and that it must happen in order to prepare my heart for the future He has for me.
Saying goodbyes in my last week of work, saying goodbyes at my last church service, saying goodbyes to my best friends, saying goodbyes to my family. Saying all of my goodbyes in just two weeks. It's going to be the toughest, greatest, blissfully tearful thing I've had to encounter as of yet.
Are you going through a season of grieving? Beginning a new chapter in your life? Lay it at the Lord's feet, write it down, admit that it's happening so the Lord can prepare your heart for the next thing He has in store for you life! Allow yourself to grieve this moment….I promise you that it's a good thing.
"You stay the same through the ages
Your love never changes
There may be pain in the night
But joy comes in the morning
And when the oceans rage
I don't have to be afraid
Because I know that You love me
Your love never fails" – Newsboys
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