Last night, talking with my team, a teammate posed one question. Who do we want to be?
First, I want to explain where we are mentally. With a little over two months left of the Race our minds are running amuck with plans for home. What we will do for work and money? What do we want to eat when we arrive home? Who do we want to see? Where will we go for the holidays? The planning and questions are infinite. Often we remind each other and force ourselves to stop the worthless planning and chaos. To remember where we are and be present in Africa.
The real, the most important question of all is; who do we want to be? This doesn’t mean our ‘Western’ answer as in your job, school, number of children, husband/wife etc. Do we want our job, education and other people to define who we are?
This means who do YOU want to be? Posing another difficult question; are you being who you want to be?
Who do I want to be when I return home? I’ve had friends ask what will have changed? Who have I become? Will I be different?
The simple answer is yes. I will be different, but will I be who He wants me to be? Will I be the woman God wants me to be? The woman He made me to be? The woman He’s been molding me to be during these 11 months?
These are questions I ask myself often. Am I being the woman He created me to be?
Am I being the woman I want to be?
I want to live out the gifts He’s given me in my everyday life, not just on the mission field. I want to be a helper and servant to those around me. I want to continue to sharpen my gift of faith in the Lord and all He is doing in my life and in those around me. I want to use my gift of administration and planning for His work. I want to continue to encourage and love people fully, whole and completely. I want to be joyful even when things seem bleak. I want to be a prayer warrior, lifting those up who are in need. I want to be a good sister, friend, employee and stranger. I want to be an adventurer and curious. I want to be walking in confidence in who I was created to be. I want to feel beautiful even when I don’t feel beautiful. I want to be someone who finds beauty in the ugly things. I want to be someone who is present where I am and who i’m with. I want to be someone who takes advantage of every opportunity thrown at them. I want to be someone who gives it all. I want to serve Him above all.
I want to be Simone.
He’s given me these gifts and passions for a reason and it’s my job to use time. To be a caretaker of these gifts.
Again I ask myself; Who Do I Want To Be?
Am I being that person? How can I walk this out further? How can I be more?
I can continue to look to Him in the hard moments. I can continue to pursue Him in prayer. I can continue to utilize the gift of the Word He has given me. I can continue to ask Him for things because He is God and He can do all things. I can continue to remember every moment of everyday that He is good and He loves me.
So I ask you, Who Do You Want To Be?
Are you being that person?
