When I first came across with the World Race (a mission program of 11 months to share the love of God and serve communities in different 11 countries), I was going through a challenging season of my life. I was feeling dry inside, chained in an invisible prison and couldn’t get the keys despite they were at my reach. I needed an escape from the painful and frozen situation I was diving in. Have you ever felt like running and going nowhere? Well, I was feeling stuck, imprisoned and I knew I desperately needed an escape, a way out to see the Light, to meet with God again, focusing on Him again. I really don’t know how I found the World Race website, there must have been some sort of “divine setup” because I couldn’t even believe it: that was exactly what I had dreaming for and thought it didn’t even exist. The excitement was over the moon! But…it took me over a year to apply because I was too much distracted from my personal and spiritual battles. Moreover, I thought I wasn’t brave enough, good enough, talented enough, strong enough. I thought I was too ordinary and that I could have been of no use for God and His Kingdom.
Here I am now, writing my very first post before this real great adventure begins. Don’t get me wrong, I still have questions and fears, but I feel this urge, this “voice” which I even tried to ignore and silence, but it keeps whispering in my ears louder and louder, this force which is pulling me “out” of myself. I am thrilled to go because I will have the opportunity to live out the Gospel, share it and “make disciple of all nations”, while discovering the marvelous works of God in creation: the variety and beauty of cultures, foods, landscapes, sunsets, colors, perfumes.
I have been comfortable all of my life and I want now to learn how to trust and depend fully on God, experiencing His love in a tangible way daily. For so long I lived comfortably in my waiting: I was waiting, unconsciously or not, for God to show up supernaturally and instantly clear all my doubts and questions that still lingered in my mind before taking a step in the “unknown” and getting out of my comfort zone. But someone once told me that “The need is the call”: “there is too much need out there, too many people who long to be saved both physically and spiritually and we really CANNOT afford to wait until we see a banner in the sky with our name on it before deciding to go out there in our streets and communities and hear the “cry of the world”.
Yes, I am finally ready to step forward trying to adopt a “pioneering spirit” as my pastor once beautifully said, willing to take dominion and bear fruit for the Glory of God. I am tired of waiting till I will have enough faith or enough courage or boldness. I know God blessed me with so many things and I don’t want to waste His gifts. I want to treasure them and be a blessing for others. I want to live that life “to the fullest” that Jesus promised. These feelings, this enthusiasm for HIM, despite still veiled and stained with some fear, anxiety and powerlessness, I am certain it all comes from God; hence I want to find that very real purpose He created me for.
I know that I don’t have to go far away to connect with HIM or being helpful and fruitful. There is so much need even here in London and even within our community or among our friends and people we know, but I really feel God wants me to go on this special journey for different reasons and not only to be a disciple and to serve. He wants me to go deeper in my relationship with Him, to get purified from certain addictions which build up in my heart. He wants to show to someone as stubborn as myself that I can totally depend on Him even on the other side of the world, far from my comfort and the people I love. I like to believe that He intends to make me experience the miraculous in little things and shape me into a strong believer beyond my blockages and anxieties, to show me that His Grace and His Love is enough no matter where I am or whatever happens.
WAYS you can support me:
Through PRAYER: please pray for safety for me and my team and that we can bear fruit and make a difference wherever we are impacting communities and people!
Though SUBSCRIBING to my blog by clicking on the button “subscribe” on this page: by doing so you will be notified everytime I post (hopefully once a week or every 2 weeks). Feel also free to comment if you wish, this will encourage me a lot and I will know that maybe there is actually someone out there reading what’s going on in my mind and on the World Race;)
Through financial SUPPORT if you are led to and your heart prompts you to do so (any amount, no matter how small or big, will help tons and you will contribute personally to the practicality of the mission/volunteering activity):
*you can donate by clicking on the button DONATE on this page
*through my PayPal account: paypal.me/SimonaTropeano84
*through bank transfer: Account Number 67675883 Sort Code 04 00 04
Thank you so MUCH even for just reading!!! 🙂
