I confess that I’m frustrated. I confess that this last week, I have struggled to stay motivated and driven towards ministry. I confess that I’ve had doubts about why God would bring me here. Why would God waste my time and energy after coming all the way to Albania to serve Him?
Americans are good at efficiency. We love schedules and order. We like to have a clear plan. Organization leads to efficiency, and efficiency increases effectiveness. A huge part of organization is communication. There isn’t much communication here. Our ministry contact often tells us what we are doing the day that we are doing it.
On Thursday our team leader got a text in the morning telling us that we would be running a kids English class for two hours that morning. Immediately I was mad and had doubts. We weren’t prepared at all to run a class, and until it started we didn’t know how many kids we would have, or what ages they would be. I was frustrated because I felt that if we had had time to prepare, we would have been more effective.
While I still find myself frustrated by the lack of communication and schedule, I have found that we have been able to do great ministry despite these challenges. While I rarely know what the big picture is for our ministry, God most certainly knows, and will see that our ministry is effective. Here in Albania, effectiveness is not what I am supposed to focus on. I will follow God’s lead, and trust that His plan will succeed, even if it doesn’t make sense to me.
On a side note, I am super close to being fully funded! Thank you so much to all of you who have supported me prayerfully and financially! If you haven’t made a donation or maybe feel lead to contribute further, would you consider helping me be fully funded by the end of September? Thank you so much, and God bless!
