Sitting here at the Chop House in the Atlanta Airport with my long awaited cup of coffee I am attempting to process this last week. What exactly happened? I don't really know. But what I do know is, I was beautifully wrecked. I have spent so much of my life living behind the face of "Sierra." All the while asking myself Who am I? What gifts do I have? What do I have to offer? This week not only did I get answers to these questions but I got answers to questions I didn't even know I had.
Before leaving for training camp I had no idea what to expect. No one warned me that I would get about 28 total hours of sleep the entire week (Huge downgrade from my typical 56 hours). No one mentioned I would only shower twice or that those two showers would be so cold I had to check for frostbite after. Going into training camp, had someone told me I would fall in love with my tent and sleeping bag I would have laughed. Now I am pretty sure I will be setting it up on my bed. Above all else no one told me I would leave camp a completely different person than when I showed up.
This week I got to see God work in ways I never knew possible. God showed me not only does He love me but he really likes me too. I realized this week that I have convinced myself my whole life that "I don't like people". But guess what? That is so very far from the truth. What I didn't like was the feeling of rejection. Not only did God take that from me but he showed me that all the trials and tribulations in my life led me here.
It took a long night of sleeping on a bus with my whole team for me to finally surrender my whole self to God. I was taken so far out of my comfort zone I had no choice but to cling to my faith in the Father. I was blessed with an amazing squad of Men and Women who not only know, but listen to God. I am so very excited to start this amazing journey with these people! R squad lets go share our Beautifully Wrecked life with the world!
