So we have only been in Cambodia for a few days and God has totally changed everything!! Its kind of ridiculous the amount of things God has shown me over the last week.
The first few days I was really struggling with being here in Cambodia and on the Race. I was exhausted and for the first time in my life i missed America. Having grown up in another country I never have been much of a patriot. But man has God changed that…. All the sudden He has given me such a heart for America. Such a desire to reach the people of America. Such a heart to go home and live my life as a ministry for Him.
All my life I have done ministry. Heck im a missionary kid! I grew up in ministry. But I have never really understood what living my life AS a ministry looked like. God is showing me.
He is showing me how to represent Him in everything I do. And how I can live life in America and live a life for Him. A life devoid of things that Americans would question. That would force them to realize that im different. Not that I just say im different, but that they can see it!
The first step is sacrifice. Sacrificing music I have listened to my whole life. Sacrificing movies that are “funny” but completely inappropriate. Sacrificing time so that I may spend it with Him instead of the television. Sacrificing my privilege of being 21 in America and what that means I can use my money to buy and display in public.
Loving like I never have before!
Choosing joy and love over my own selfish desires.
God truly is showing me how to live a life that would honer Him, in the midst of America. A life that is different.
He is showing me that I love teaching! And He wants to grow me in that. He wants to use me to teach His power and love to not only the nations, but to America! He has given me such joy! Joy to share. Joy to shine and make His name known.
He has taught me how beautiful I am in Him. I can confidently walk around in the world with no make up and funky hair and be completely comfortable because He is the reason I am beautiful.
Man He has rocked my world the last few days! These mere words can’t even explain you all of you what He has shown me. What He has done IN me. I can love people around me so much better then I did at the being of the Race. And it comes so naturally! So much for being and introvert! Jesus has more for me!!
