Lord, You totally threw off my plan and knocked me off my game by sending me on this crazy cool, super fun, annoyingly difficult, soul stirring, Spirit-filled whirlwind of an adventure around the world.
I thought I had it all figured out… Mostly figured out. I thought after the year working at the school I’d return to an office or residential setting and get back to the nuts and bolts of counseling. I thought I’d be pursuing licensure with an awesome supervisor that challenges me to think outside the box and to let You lead me in sessions with clients. I thought maybe I’d be living somewhere in GA, or pretty much anywhere other than TN.
But here I am sitting atop a beautifully, breathtaking mountain wondering what the heck is next.
What now?
I’ve been on this journey for 8.5 months now and I’m so grateful that You saw fit to send me around the world to learn about really trusting You. About evangelizing and sharing the Gospel. About showing Your love through working with orphans in India, teaching 1st and 2nd graders in Cambodia, building a restaurant in Thailand, networking in South Africa, and helping make a documentary here in Dominican Republic.
But with less than 3 months left on this incredible journey I’m being encouraged to seek You about my next steps.
Whatever shall I do?
It’s easy to report lessons learned after the fact. Those are fun and exciting to share.
But to share the confusion, hope, doubt, struggle, and difficulty in the midst of a life transition, or any trial of life, can be hard. It requires me to be vulnerable, present, and honest.
So, in this place of vulnerability and honesty I will share with you the things I told God I desire during the next phase of my life.
I want to:
- Continue growing spiritually and emotionally
- Work somewhere that provides supervision for licensure
- Be a part of a Christian community of young adults and older people that can share wisdom and life experiences
- Be pushed out of my comfort zone
- Enjoy the work I’m doing and life I’m living
- Live a healthy lifestyle
- Make enough money for bills and playtime
- Be actively involved in a church family
- Work with a variety of clients and find my niche
- Pour into younger women and girls
- Have an older woman mentor me professionally and spiritually
- Live a life worth living
- Feel better than I did when I was living and working in Memphis
- Be a part of a diverse community
- Relearn Spanish and speak fluently
- Know and be known
As I read Priscilla Shirer’s book, Fervent, I’m learning the importance of praying serious, specific, and strategic prayers. So, that’s what I told Abba I want. Will you join me in praying that the Lord will speak clearly about His plan for my next steps soon? Like within a month from today?
Yet, in total submission and reliance upon the King of kings I pray as Jesus did, “… yet not my will, yours be done.”
