A realization hit me today… Life at home goes on without me.
I know. That should go without saying but its one of those things that you can claim to know to be true and something that everyone understands. But then, your faced with the reality of it and you realize you didn't want it to be true. The reality that I'm not needed at home for their life to continue. Not that I'm not important, but just simply life goes on without me. People I love have babies and get married and move to other states. Decisions are not dependent on my presence or absence and I can't expect them to be. I am not entitled to that and I know it. But still, its a weird place to be halfway around the world living this new life for a year knowing that at home things continue as usual and they don't have to wait on me for that to happen.
As much as I will be different when I return because of the experiences that the Lord has given me, the life I left in Georgia will also be different. The reality that I left life as I know it is a tough thing. Its not really something you can prepare yourself for.
BUT! The Lord knew I would come to this place and He gave me 2 words before I left for the race that have become so sweet to me. 1st He said "Trust Me. I am doing a work in you on this journey and you will never be the same. Don't look back Shelley. Don't regret the things you are leaving behind, just trust Me." And 2nd, He said "Wait and see what I will do!"
SO! I'm trusting and waiting. And I know even in a year when I get home and things are no longer the same…following the Father in this journey will be more than worth it! I'm convinced of that.
