I love time to just sit and think…. I don't have as much of that as I used to. At home I loved time alone in the car (with "nothing to do" hahaha) where my mind could just wonder and think about anything from lessons the Lord was teaching me to what I wanted to have for dinner. Most days I would just ride with the radio off and think. Being on the race I miss that. Now days I don't travel anywhere with less than 5 people and somedays its as many as 54. I miss my alone time to think.
Today we were on a flight to Bangkok Thailand and I put in my ipod for "alone time" with at least a hundred other people. The song that came on said…
"Jesus, you're my great reward.
You are my portion Lord.
While in heaven plead for me.
Draw my every thought to Thee.
I love You Lord, Jesus, my king.
I want to love You more
My great reward.
I have this treasure in a jar of clay.
All Your glory on display,
You have made me a dwelling place.
You are everything I'm living for.
I'm moving toward the prize.
One think I ask and this I seek…
to gaze into Your eyes."
As I listened I sat there and thought about my life….
My life is crazy and wonderful and I am in a place where I have no idea what my future holds (heck, I don't even know what this next month holds!) I realized I am finally in a place where I can let go of needing to know and I am legitimately excited about it. I'm excited because I know in the heart of my beloved Jesus that He loves me and he has good things for me. The good things don't always look like I thought they would and sometimes not even like I would want them too, but he is good and faithful and true and I can trust Him.
I love time to think :).
