"Trust The Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6
All my life I've been told to "trust God."
Trust God to provide
Trust God to speak through me
Trust God to guide me
Trust God to strengthen me
Trust God to protect me
The list goes on and on and while I might not have always believed those statements I can say now that I do: I trust Him.
Its become easy for me to trust God because everything he says he is going to do, he does. Every promise he makes, he delivers. He hasn't failed, and he's not going to start now. He is the definition of faithfulness.
"God, who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful." -1 Corinthians 1:9
But recently I learned that I don't trust myself. In fact, I believed it was a contradiction to trust myself and to trust God at the same time. Surely I shouldn't trust myself because I've been told not to lean on my own understanding and instead acknowledge The Lord.
Many times I get so lost in trying to figure out which thought in my mind is mine, and which thought is His. But the truth that he is speaking over me is that I'm learning for the first time what It means to delight in him and because I'm delighting in Him my thoughts about myself are lining up with his thoughts about me.
"Delight yourself in The Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart." – Psalm 37:4
What an honor it is to know that I want what The Lord wants for my life. It's not something that is forced or way out from left field. It's what I'm called to do because its what I love.
I love it because it draws me closer to him, and He is my first love. When I'm doing those sweet things he's designed me to do and ministering to those people he's wired me to minister to I feel so close to his heart.
He whispers to me in those moments, "this, my daughter, is your act of worship."
For far too long I neglected the fact that the same Lord I call on is IN me. And The Lord in me is worth trusting. Will I make mistakes? Most definitely. But as long as I am finding my delight in Him he will not lead me astray. He will complete in me the work he began.
"Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."-Philippians 1:6
If you're reading this, Jesus isn't done. He delights in you, and you were made to delight in him. Focus on that, and trust will follow.
