Heyhireyew?

 

Sometimes I want to already be on the World Race so bad I can hardly stand it,

and

sometimes I want to put my head in the ground and not make any life changes.

 

Sometimes I can’t wait to see my squadmates in NYC in 22 (!) days,

and

sometimes I just want to cling to everyone I hold dear and not leave or let go.

 

Sometimes I am paralyzed with fear when I anticipate speaking to a crowd in who-knows-where-Swaziland,

and sometimes I remember that it’s not about me at all actually, but about what God wants to say to others through me.

 

Sometimes I get really excited about ministering to the prostitute, orphan or teenager,

and

sometimes I forget that they’re souls and personalities just like me that just need to know the love of God.

 

Sometimes I am hungry for the Word and just want to learn all I can from it,

and

sometimes I just want to watch Psych and go to bed.

 

Sometimes I’m happy and relieved to be single,

and

sometimes I get lonely and despair in it.

 

Sometimes I want to make good choices and start new habits,

and

sometimes I just want a cheeseburger.

 

Sometimes I pick the blue pill

and

sometimes I pick the red one.

 

Small talk gets old. There’s some realness for you.

 

In other news… I have only $3800 left to raise to be fully funded!! For those of you who haven’t been here from the beginning, that is down from the seemingly staggering total of $14,300. God is good and huge and awesome. If I had any doubts that this was where I was supposed to be, He blew them up. Also, 1 of my cars sold! WOOHOO!!! Thanks for the prayers! I still need to sell my new one but having one car gone will definitely be a load off.

 

I’m tired and going to bed now.